@Corsega-what is causing you so much anger and bitterness? You even chose to post a profile pic with an angry look. Looking for positive things instead of negative thoughts make our lives so much more peaceful and serene.
As a child, we picked strawberries in Michigan, but we probably ate as many as we picked. I have never been able to enjoy another strawberry after eating those vine-ripened freshly picked strawberries. The same thing after eating tree ripened peaches from the Hill Country in Texas and cherries from a Washington farmers'market. Grocery store fruits just cannot compare.....except maybe watermelon from South Texas. I do love a fresh fruit salad though, with all the flavors mixed together...delicious!
If you are the one that stops writing, maybe you give up too easily on people. When you are "talking" online, it is very easy to misunderstand-you should always try to clarify what the other person meant to say when they hurt you. One of my very close friends stopped writing to me and it does hurt because we had shared so much and he never gave me a real reason to end the friendship- I will never know the reason.
That elusive inner peace is what we are all looking for. After my divorce, I thought I had found it. The "relationships" I have had on CS have taught me otherwise. I merely scratched at the surface of that inner peace that could give me comfort in who I am. Like you say, I am still too ready to cling to those one or two things I like in someone. I believe it comes from the strong desire to not be alone-to have a partner-as I guess humans were meant to be. I like how you express your ideas....these same ideas have been floating around in my brain for some time...just hard to put into words.
You can look nearby, you can look far away, you can even look back, but do not just wait....it will not come to you. You must seek it.....I think....but what do I know..still looking....lol Do not give up.
You are so right, 10K..honestly I am left speechless about the many deaths....I would not even know what to say...kind of like I felt after 9/11. Too much for words..my heart aches for all the loved ones.
Yes, I am so sad....I loved her music and her voice. She lived as a tortured soul on this earth and maybe, just maybe she feels finally free....our great loss....may her soul rest in peace.
I know your pain. I am in exact situation and it doesn't get better. I don't think she is using you, but she would have left her boyfriend already. If she has not done that yet, she probably never will. It is a lonely and frustrating road you are traveling towards. Try with all your being to find someone that is free even if it is just friendship-to help you leave this unhealthy relationship.
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RE: Jilted, I was!!
Thank you for that sweet welcome, Ed.