do you know yourself?

Nice thought. I think I agree

Welcome back Steve! Haha, im still here!
Guess that means i act less and think less too

I dont know. But i do know one thing:
I DO know myself,
and it DOES make me feel ready. (is that corr english?)

Morgen,
You seem to be genuine and I'm sure you have done much self reflecting from your posts I've read.

I'm liking it here so far. At first I wasn't sure lol.
I will be posting more in the future and hope I can get more people thinking. I have some very strange ideas and points of view very often but it works for me.

I've just always been very observant and that's where my ideas come from. Just from watching my surroundings. Emotions are very interesting to me and how people deal with them so be prepared for some strange postings from me. Bbl

I agree with you steve. When I came here I thought I knew pretty clear what I wanted: like type of man and like type of relationship. With time, while blogging, reading blogs and communicating with people here, I saw I needed some more research on myself and my connection with the others. So I won't mislead myself and men.

Ok, I remember when I first started experiencing emotions as a small child. I would wonder what made me feel the way I did. I realized almost immediately that what seemed to cause my emotion wasn't really what it seemed.
I remember getting angry about something and then thinking where did that anger come from. Then I remembered another similar incident where I was disappointed. That previous disappointment created the anger I felt the next time.
I've done this throughout my life. I've watched others do things where I could predict the outcome before they even acted on an idea. Like watching guys hit on women. By watching both parties before hand I could tell what both reactions would be.

Ok, say you are sitting at a stop sign and a car rear ends you. Do you get angry at that person? Is it his fault?

But what put you in that persons path? Was it coincidence or is nature at work in its great wisdom. After all you put yourself in the situation to be hit.

I know that's different but in nature it all relates when you can look past the immediate situation.

What I have been trying to do is find that inner peace that no one can touch. Remove the outside influences and take ownership of my emotions, my actions and "my" happiness. Just like no one else can make you happy no one else should make you sad or angry.

Ok, I remember when I first started experiencing emotions as a small child. I would wonder what made me feel the way I did. I realized almost immediately that what seemed to cause my emotion wasn't really what it seemed.
I remember getting angry about something and then thinking where did that anger come from. Then I remembered another similar incident where I was disappointed. That previous disappointment created the anger I felt the next time.
I've done this throughout my life. I've watched others do things where I could predict the outcome before they even acted on an idea. Like watching guys hit on women. By watching both parties before hand I could tell what both reactions would be.

Ok, say you are sitting at a stop sign and a car rear ends you. Do you get angry at that person? Is it his fault?

But what put you in that persons path? Was it coincidence or is nature at work in its great wisdom. After all you put yourself in the situation to be hit.

I know that's different but in nature it all relates when you can look past the immediate situation.

What I have been trying to do is find that inner peace that no one can touch. Remove the outside influences and take ownership of my emotions, my actions and "my" happiness. Just like no one else can make you happy no one else should make you sad or angry.

That elusive inner peace is what we are all looking for. After my divorce, I thought I had found it. The "relationships" I have had on CS have taught me otherwise. I merely scratched at the surface of that inner peace that could give me comfort in who I am. Like you say, I am still too ready to cling to those one or two things I like in someone. I believe it comes from the strong desire to not be alone-to have a partner-as I guess humans were meant to be. I like how you express your ideas....these same ideas have been floating around in my brain for some time...just hard to put into words.