Thunderhawk Forum Posts (503)

RE: Guys that are DENSE...

I am very dense - till she shows interest. then I show here what words can only express. Then for some strange reason, I turn out to be no so dense after all. Go figure

RE: Hell of a 1st day

I will let you know how it turns out in the morning - if my jaw is not broke that is.

RE: Ban handguns.

Problem here my friend? Do you need a verbal cannon? Just aim and point dear and let the Thunderhawk missle do the rest.

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Damn I am in tears You put into words what I actually feel. Never in my entire life have I met or understood the "other" side of the fence (from the correctional officers point of view). If more c/o's were like you - perhaps I would have gotten out a long time ago. Ironic as it sounds - you have been my friend for quite some time now. Many a phone call, many an IM, many an e mail we have shared. You told me why tho. I am one of the few that made it. You and people like you - inspire me to move on, go on and to keep carrying on and not to revert to what I know or have learned, and you of all people know I am one force to be reckoned with, cause I do not care whether I live or die, but how many I can take down with me when I go. Hopefully, when and if that happens, someone like you, can save lives and bring me out with words and peace.

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Very sweet and well said. Guess some people understand the motive without having been there after all.

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I do what I got to do and leave the rest to God. My perception of this world - I feel like buck rogers in the 21'st century. I do not understand free people and they do not understand me.

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Yes I had access to books - taught myself computers through reading them - yes I kept a journal - plan to write a book someday called "the Misadventures of a con" - by one who's been there and done that - and no I did not make friends there -I did my crime and did my time. I was not there to make friends - I went in a man and walked out a wiser one

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Screw human interaction - what was there to interact with but the lowest forms of life on the face of this earth? No - being able to walk the yard was atleast some freedom - in solitary - ya can't even do that!

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In the pack. Always could take care of myself. Some freedom is better than none (solitary)

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You said just one thing - here it is "You will never realize what you have till you haven't got it anymore"

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Yes - did two years in the "hole" for breaking a correction officers jaw. Yes, I the walls did close in on me. The way to survive it is to build a space n your mind and escape there as often as you can. the other way is to shut down your emotions and stay hard - work out- get stronger and psyche yourself up to be more determined to survive than ever.

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Believe it or not - youth correctional facilities are WORSE than actual prisons are. They can get away with more. Plus it is the perfect training ground for a future life in prison.

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But I did answer your question. Ok - when I got out cars cost as much as homes - jobs were scarce and underpaid - women were different - men were different. The air smelled cleaner. It just seemed like a big world all of a sudden and I was but a speck in life. Talk about feeling lost. Is that enough? Cause I can go on.

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When I was realeased - what a time warp I seems to have travelled through. As for prison - I missed not a damn thing.

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Don't. It will change you inside. Make you deader in your emotions, unfeeling, ect. See corrections have a much different philosophy - they got to keep us in - our job is to get out and stay out. Corrections get brainwashed as much as prisoners are.

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Lts' reply one at a time. I been free 7 years but still pay the price. Lost my mom last year ( only had 6 years with her as a free adult). Now I am the only living member of my family left. Had a wife who stuck by me for all 15 years - got divorced last year cause I have hardened and changed too much and ma not the man she once married. Jobs are harder to find. It is hard to get a date cause I feel like I passed through a time warp. the list goes on and on.

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Trish - I am not being specific on purpose as not to gross anyone out honey.

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toilet seat? what toilet seat. All we had where I was - was a porcelin god.

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Only the fact that I am human too - if that is something to share. Test this locked up brain. I want to see if I still have an IQ...lol

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Many. I counteracted it by pure instinct. Self preservation is on powerful ally.

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I am a little snockered and in rare form tonight. I feel good and feel like opening up. So ask me what you will and I will try to answer. Bear in mind I come from a different world and environment that most of you - so there will be some questions I will not be able to answer and there will be others that I will be totally wrong about. But ask - what harm can it do?

Shirt or no shirt

Give me mountains to climb.

Why is it?

Danm but of all the people on here - you can see me inside out. If more corrections officers were like you - more people like me would stay out and FREE. God bless you and I hope the Prison Politics never change you.

Hugs,
Bob

RE: Things that pi$$ me off

Plastic people. You know the kind that smile in your face and stab you in the back.

RE: People who misuse terms.

It is a "hail mary" pass when the Cleveland Browns throw it...lol

RE: Values

Jean you are a good lady. Intelligent maybe to a fault - but with a good heart none the less. I still say stick to those values. Like me, you are a diamond in the ruff. Be YOU and to hell what everyone else thinks.

Beer Poll

Forgot - I am a budweiser man myself. Not light tho - to me it is pisswater. Like my women I like the real version.

RE: People who misuse terms.

It interests me too my friend - though I am self taught. I search and I learn. Man I want so bad to open up - but something is still locking up my thoughts.

Why is it?

Trish you know me apart from here - just wish others could. Hugs to you sweetie and thanks.

Why is it?

Dude - I do not know you except through your posts - but you are one cool person. Advice well noted. My respect well earned.