My posting has got a little out of hand since last night because everything has been hurting me so bad. I was just trying to get things off my chest not realizing what it is doing to somebody. Please dont take all of it too literally and know that the heart can make you say some really crazy things when it is hurting.
I am sorry hun and to everybody else, please dont let it give any bad opinions about her. She really is a great girl. The whole breakup was due to a lot of confusion. I only wish she could see past it and see past my postings this past day.
People worry what are they worrin about today seems like there's a good reason to worry worry worry I'd sit around listening to you story if I wasn't in such a hurry hurry hurry and I'm so lonely I just don't think I can take it anymore and I'm so lonely I just don't know what to do and I'm so lonely feel like I'm gonna crawl away and die and I'm so lonely feel like i'm gonna hack hack hack hack it apart seems like theres a good reason to be lonely lonely lonely I gotta get someone or something to make me feel less lonely lonely lonely I know I could do it I know if I wasn't so lonely lonely lonely have we got an army we'll teach you how to act like to act like a man have we got an army man I mean to tell you we can fight have we got an army and were gonna do it tonight do do do it tonight yeah they're gonna pay pay pay pay it tonight do do do it tonight people worry what are they worrin about today people worry na you see I've learned my lessons and I don't even want to here about your confessions
Adam was walking around the garden of Eden feeling very lonely, so God asked him, "What is wrong with you?"
Adam said he didn't have anyone to talk to.
God said that he was going to make Adam a companion and that it would be a woman.
He said, "This person will gather food for you, cook for you, when you discover clothing, she'll wash it for you. She will always agree with every decision you make. She will bear your children and never ask you to get up in the middle of the night to take care of them. She will not nag you, and will always be the first to admit she was wrong when you've had a disagreement. She will never have a headache, and will freely give you love and passion whenever you need it."
Adam asked God, "What will a woman like this cost?"
I used to have hope but that was half a lifetime ago. Since then, it has always been me doing the giving whether its me cooking romantic candle light dinners of filling the bedroom with candles with rose petals all over the bed. I mean I don't really even want anything. Just somebody who truly appreciates me for everything I do. That is the best gift a woman could ever give me.
I got a really huge card on valentines day from my girlfriend back when I was 16 that stood from the floor to past my knees. I have never really been that special to anybody after that.
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph; Not know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cause Im broken when Im lonesome And I dont feel right when youre gone away
youre gone away; you dont feel me here anymore
The worst is over now and we can breathe again I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away Theres so much left to learn, and no one left to fight I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cause Im broken when Im open And I dont feel like I am strong enough Cause Im broken when Im lonesome And I dont feel right when youre gone away
Cause Im broken when Im open And I dont feel like I am strong enough Cause Im broken when Im lonesome And I dont feel right when youre gone away
Also funny how you say wanting and demanding sympathy and attention.
I am terribly sorry but some of us have real feelings and are getting rather tired and hurt by every damn relationship we get into turning into a huge joke by people who want to do nothing but play jokes.
Have you ever wanted something so bad that you can just taste it? Now my sons mom is getting married in about 17 hours to the guy she cheated on me with and broke up our home, leaving me all alone to play with internet players who promise you the world only to let you down.
So I shouldn't be hurt over this? Let me ask you a question. What exactly is the written rule to relationship length before you are allowed to have a broken heart?
"Green and Dumb" by Roger Clyne and the Peacemakers
Daisies stand up on their tip-toes Clouds tumble over themselves in the sky And all the pretty horses come runnin’ to her And even the dust devils pray That they'll catch her eye
I haunt her house from the outside I watch her bake cornbread and talk on the phone And the wireless on the inside plays a sad sweet song A mute moonlit statue am I, she waltzes alone
But baby, baby, I could call you baby If I weren’t so empty in the head and tied up in the tongue And baby, baby, I could call you baby If I weren’t so green and dumb
The wind ain’t stopped blowin’ since morning It’s got me froze up on the inside And I could get warm in the bunk house And thaw out on coffee and bread
But baby, baby, I could call you baby If I weren’t so empty in the head and tied up in the tongue But baby, baby, I could call you baby If I weren’t so green and dumb
I need your government warning like I need a hole in my head Well, I won’t shoot your coyotes And I won’t burn your weeds Your paycheck won’t fill up this hollow It won't dull all the aching
But baby, baby, I could call you baby If I weren’t so empty in the head and tied up in the tongue But baby, baby, I could call you baby If I weren’t so green & dumb
If I weren’t so green & dumb If I weren’t so green & dumb If I weren’t so green & dumb
Yes but its so much harder to get over somebody when you have to constantly be around somebody and read their writings. It is going to be even harder when the day comes that she finds somebody else and I have to read their happiness spread all over the forums. I would rather just leave before that happens.
There are other singles sites and some of the community here is at those places as well. If I do decide to leave, I will let everybody know first so I can get their Yahoo's, AIMS and MSN's to keep in contact.
I dont want to go but I really don't see any other way for now.
I know that but it is so hard. Especially when you have to still see this person post about their secret crushes and what not making you realize even more that everything they said to you was nothing but a lie.. They talk about being played in the past but in all reality, they became the player this time.
I just hope I don't have to leave this place that I have grown to like. CS has been a home to me for over a year.
And whats really funny about that Eupho is I slept in the bush because of a girl. I was 10 miles away form home and wanted to talk to her the next day. Even at 15 years old, I was chasing them around all confused. lol
I would love to leave this country and move overseas but I cant go anywhere because I have a son here. I could move to Canada though since it is only 15 minutes away.
Morning falls like rain into the city life There goes another night Losing my breath in waves Knowing that ever crash is bleading the hourglass and taking the strife from all our lives
Everyone keeps talking They promise you everything But they don't mean anything
We may loose our focus There's just too many words We're never meant to learn And we don't feel so alive
So goodbye, these days are gone and we can't keep holding on When all we need is some relief Though these hard times Through these hard times
Move your hands in circles Keeping me hypnotized The power behind your eyes
Move around your bedroom cursing the naked sky You should be here tonight But you stay alone and cry
Say goodbye, these days are gone and we can't keep holding on When all we need is some relief Through these hard times (whoa) There's something missing (Oh whoa) You'll never feel it but you (Oh whoa) You're gonna feel it when it's gone When it's gone
Say goodbye, these days are gone and we can't keep holding on When all we need is some relief Through these hard times (hey) these Hard times (oh no now) Hard times Hard times
Say goodbye, these days are gone Say goodbye, these days are gone These days are gone
How can one be skeptical this day in age though in a world of virtual phone books with speed dial? You dial the number once, store it and it is always there at a click of a button. Hell. I don't even know some of my best friends numbers by heart because of this nor do they know mine.
It also was not that her email address was unavailable to me, Internet access is what was unavailable.
Anyway. Thanks for the posts everybody. I did manage to get some sleep finally. Now I have woke up sick as a dog, feeling completely drained. I guess a couple days of not sleeping in tears all the time will do that to you. I slept with the phone in hopes that she would come to her senses and call me. It didn't happen though and this girl I know now is not the same one I fell for. She is different.
I understand. I am always willing to give the benefit of the doubt though and never back down from what I believe in. I honestly think that if we could somehow get over this, maybe she will realize that she can trust me and that I have never done anything to her.
I don't know. I am going to lay down I guess. Probably wont be for long though because every time I try, I completely lose it after a while and come back on here.
I will keep the phone close though and pray to god that she calls me
I tried but she doesn't seem too concerned. I really don't get it. Before all this happened, I was very concerned about something that was going on in her life and tried to step in. I was constantly on the go and didn't talk nearly as much. Then in the middle of it, I had some problems with living arrangements, got locked out of the house and had no access to her cell number or the internet which was the reason I was gone.
She doesn't trust me because of a**hole in her past. Now because of those players, us real guys are left to suffer.
I was not on CS, and I was not on any of my other forums. I get accused of cheating though and when I explain everything, she still doesn't care. I have even offered her all my passwords to sites I visit so she can see my login times and post times if I really need to clear up my innocence due to accusations.
I am so clueless. How does one listen to you in tears half the night, not care and then just hang up on you? Is that love and were their words ever true or do they let others make up their minds who don't even know me or any circumstances at hand?
They make a million excuses and are distrusting when you never gave them a reason not to trust you. They speak of marriage and children, leading you on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment or never real to begin with.
You have your heart broken and your hopes dashed by someone too selfish to care. Then you spend countless nights awake, dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in her speech while sitting on some message board. Thinking about how you tried doing things for them only to have it blown up in your face and left with an email breakup.
You think about nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and wonderful. And that you are truly worthy of a great person only to later on feel the regret as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow after you hear the phone hang up on you as you are pouring your heart out to them. I don't know if I can really face that pillow so now on to day three with no sleep.
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Im sorry
My posting has got a little out of hand since last night because everything has been hurting me so bad. I was just trying to get things off my chest not realizing what it is doing to somebody. Please dont take all of it too literally and know that the heart can make you say some really crazy things when it is hurting.I am sorry hun and to everybody else, please dont let it give any bad opinions about her. She really is a great girl. The whole breakup was due to a lot of confusion. I only wish she could see past it and see past my postings this past day.