I am terribly sorry to hear about your loss. I am going through a similar thing with my mom so I feel your pain. Hospice may be taking over sooner than we think.
I will keep your family in my prayers. You dont know me but feel free to write if you would like to get things off your chest. Sometimes it is good to talk to somebody who is going through a similar thing.
I played guitar for 15 years and was pretty damn good. Then I suffered a work injury, cutting a tendon in my wrist. I have not played in a very long time due to my wrist being too sore after only 5 minutes of playing. I sold my equiptment off about 6 months later.
I was thinking about trying again since it has been 6 years since the injury. Possibly picking up a cheap strat and see where it takes me. I am sure i have alot to relearn since i have been away from it for so long but at least I still know all my chords, some scales and a ton on music theory. Who knows if i will ever be as good as i used to though.
I just got some really bad news over the phone. My moms cancer has now spread into her lungs and liver.
I have posted a bit about my my situeation a while back. i dont use these forums as much anymore though so people may not remember me.
My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer a few years ago. She had some kemo and her breast removed and she was good to go. About a year ago it came back in her bones. She was instantly put on alot of medication and shoved in a hospital not remembering her own name even. after months of confusion, she was finelly released but was still out of it. We went to another doctor in the network who took her off alot of the meds. She made an instant recovery. She was even driving again. We were told that it was very possible she could live to be an old lady as long as they kept it out of her organs.
She was good for about three months and started to get bad again. Her cancer started to spread and her pain medication had to be raised. She was so bad, she couldnt walk without a walker. This was about the same time my sons mom and i broke up and I moved out. I was going to get a new place soon and moved back home for about a month. My mom got so bad, i had to stay. I also got laid off from my job. I was going to get a new one but my mom was so bad, she required 20 hour care and with my dad working during the day to struggle to pay their bills and keep their insurance, I was the only one really in the position to be her care giver since i had no other real obligations at the time.
So basically, i put my whole life on hold to care for my sick mom. I care for her all day and have my son every evening. Both of them are a full time job which i do not get paid for. It was well worth it though and i needed to be there for my family.
Right around the same time, i started dating a girl i met on this site. i spent all week with my mom and the weekends with her. Then after a month in a half, she decided to want other things. That messed me up but I got through it.
I have not been out for the house in quite some time. i tried to go back to college but had to drop my classes already because mom cant be alone. Now i have no money because I spent my tax return on classes i had to drop anyway. My only source of income are credit cards and i use the cash advances to pay on them every month.
I gave up everything to help my mom and was really optimistic. i thought my hard work and dedication to her would make all the difference in her recovery. Now she is in the hospital and probably doesnt have much time left. I dont know the extent of it until the family meeting later at the hospital. I dont think she has much longer though.
I basically have nobody except for my son and a couple friends who have no time for me because of work, school and relationships. Girls will not get close to me because of everything that is going on. I was talking to somebody out of state but that is not going very far now. All i get is mail from an immature girl i was seeing from here calling me a pathetic loser who needs to change my profile and get professional help. She laughed and said I could never talk a girl out on the town because things like that require money which i do not have. she said her and her friend could not stop laughing. I did not ask for my mom to get sick though. i did not ask to lose everything. Does this really make me that pathetic or are alot of women just that shallow?
i guess all i can do now is hope for some kind of quick miracle cure like so many others have towards the end. i am shaking so bad right now I dont know what to do. I am completely losing my mind and have nobody to talk to. this whole thing has changed me and has given me a really bad outlook on life and people. I just want my mom to live so i know i didnt fail and that everything i have given up has not been for nothing.
I have been kind of seeing somebody for over a month now. She is a really sweet girl and extremely cute on top of it. The problem though is the distance. She likes in Minn and I live in Mich. It's about a 15 hour drive. I have been there once and she has come here as well and spent the week. We talk on the phone alot and she is coming back down in a couple weeks.
Damn this is hard though. I mean my plate is extremely full right now with school, my son and caring for my mom who has stage 4 breast cancer. I could never relocate because of this but she has hinted around that she would be willing to reloacte. Is this something that can work or should I be looking more close to home?
Being single is hard for me. I really miss waking up in the morning to that special sombody running her fingers through my hair and giving me a kiss on the forehead while snuggled up together.
Thanks for that. You and The professor seem like really good people. He sent me an email after I posted about being dumped.
Things are just so hard and its one thing after another. My mom first got her breast cancer a few years back and beat it. Then right after last christmas, it came back in her bones. She got really bad for months and the doctors had her so heavily medicated, she didnt even know who she was for months. My dad missed 6 months of work because of it
After a second opinion, she was taken off all the meds and came back to reality and was doing really good for a long time. Now alot of the pain is back because the cancer has spread and the new radiation is taking alot out of her. My dad couldnt miss anymore work because he cannot get anymore unemployment for a long time and they would lose everything. Now I took a break from the things in my life and have been the one helping and put off getting back on my feet and into a new place.
The girl I met here really helped me though alot of this. I could always talk to her about anything and she made things alot easier. Then she changed her heart and i have even more on my plate with nobody to turn to. it was the hardest holiday I can remember.
Hopefully some positives will start rolling in after this weeks over.
Still licking my wounds not to mention one bad thing after another.
1. My life turned into a country song four months ago when I lost the house, The car, the dog and the son. Bad relationship though and we both had to let go for the kids sake. Still miss my house and tucking the little one in every night
2. Met somebody on connecting singles who I though was very special, said all the things that made me smile. She had a sudden change of heart the day before christmas eve and broke my heart after three months of getting to know who I thought was the girl of my dreams.
3. Had to walk away from work a while to care for my mom who has stage 4 breast cancer. This is the last week of radiaion though and hopefully she will have her sanity back and I can start working again.
I have once in the padt and I would do it again. I witnessed a roll over accident a few years ago and there was gas leaking everywhere. The guy couldnt get out of his car and I was the only one around to help. Now the car didnt catch on fire or anything but there was that risk that things could have become really bad.
Last night was really hard. I went to a party at my friends house and was the only single person there. It got really sad watching my friends exchange new years kisses with their girlfriends and wives. I am just glad the holiday is finelly over. Now I just have to worry about Valentines Day.
I used to watch back in the day I used to love watchging the New Age Outlaws. Wrestling is not the same anymore. Especially since there is no network competition anymore.
Yea. Guys are lonely too. I met who I thought was a really sweet girl on this website. She left me the day before Christmas Eve and made it hell. Ive talked to her a couple times since then. Once on the phone and once on the computer earlier today. She has become a really bitter person and judging by the things she has said to me and comments she has made on myspace, Breaking my heart became a huge game of hers.
If you would have asked this question three years ago, I would say I would move anywhere. Hell. I almost moved to Europe to take on a racing career.
Things have changed however and I have a 2 and a half year old son who I can never be away from. I mean I would move but It couldnt be more than about 50 miles.
Be very careful when bringing your children into somebodys life. I made the mistake of doing that and got dumped the other day. My son is only 2 and a half but he is still going to be confused. he has been saying Nikki (my ex) and Kiersten (her daughter) the past couple days.
Everybody told me to wait before bringing him around but i thought this was for real and brought him around anyway. I guess I should have listened to all the advice.
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RE: My Mum died peacefully today... Thank you to you all for your previous words of support
I am terribly sorry to hear about your loss. I am going through a similar thing with my mom so I feel your pain. Hospice may be taking over sooner than we think.I will keep your family in my prayers. You dont know me but feel free to write if you would like to get things off your chest. Sometimes it is good to talk to somebody who is going through a similar thing.