chris93 Forum Posts (55)

A WISH

I found out recently from a friend that the little girl I raised for ten years is really having a hard time, with things in life because of her mom,,,I cannot interfeir with her life because she is not my biological daughter,"if she was she'd be living with me..so I wrote this and somehow going to try and get it to her,,she knows I still love her so I know she will understand


A WISH

IF I WAS GRANTED ONE WISH IN LIFE
I KNOW WHAT THAT WISH WOULD BE
I'D WISH THAT YOU WERE HERE AGAIN
A PART OF MY LIFE WITH ME

I WISH I COULD SEE YOUR SMILE AGAIN
I WISH I COULD HOLD YOU TIGHT
I WISH I COULD TUCK YOU IN AGAIN
I WISH I COULD WISPER GOODNIGHT

I WISH I WAS THERE FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY
I WISH I WAS THERE WHEN YOU TURNED SIXTEEN
I WISH I WAS THERE FOR YOU TO CONFIDE IN
I WISH I WAS THERE SO YOU WOULD HAVE SEEN

I WISH SOMEDAY I CAN SEE YOU
I WISH SOMEDAY I HEAR YOUR VOICE
I WISH SOMEDAY WHEN YOUR OLDER
I WISH SOMEDAY THAT BECOMES YOUR CHOICE

I KNOW THIS POEM HAS TOO MANY WISHES
IN WHAT I HAVE WRITTEN ABOVE
BUT THERE CAN NEVER BE TOO MANY WISHES
FOR THE LITTLE GIRL IN MY LIFE I ONCE LOVED
CHRIS 01-22-2007

RE: How Do You Do It??

Distance does'nt really bother me . I,ve drove truck now for the last 33 years and driving a hundred or so miles would'nt bother me

RE: Are You Willing???

I was involved with someone that when I met her her daughter was 14 months old. I raised her as my own for ten years untill may of 2005 when her mom went on the computer and found someone else and ended everything,I have not seen that little girl since that time and I am helpless in helping her as her mom is living alone because she thought the guy she found on the internet would take her in and take care or her and her daughter (wrong) all this guy wants is to party and sleep with her,,,so I know she is in a lot of finacial difficulty
and cant pay her bills and rent and car payments,I asked her if she wanted to get back together and start over but she just says she wants to be free and single,,,,I feel so bad for her daughter because I'm not able to help her,,,,,,,,but I have to live with that I guess,,,,I have not dated or seen anyone since then,maybe I'm just afraid to trust anyone again with my heart

Renisaunce

RENISAUNCE

In church he found the solace
That eluded him for years
Bringing him to bended knees
And opened the gates for tears
Trying to wash away the past
Of feelings of guilt and pain
Knowing that the future would hold
No guranties of the same
So now with only hands clasped tight
And starring at the floor
Are prayers said in such earnest
To a GOD he now adore's
Chris

RE: update about Katine's mom....

will

RE: Touch My Heart

Excelent,,,,,,,,,very nice

RE: Q & A

FRANKS,,,,Sorry

RE: Q & A

yes used to deliver to the FRABKS NURSERY & CRAFTS stores up there

RE: Ongoing Thoughts

international sorry

RE: Ongoing Thoughts

Hi;,
I was In Chicago that morning waiting For Frank's Nurery&Crafts to open sitting in my bunk doing paperwork,had my TV on but did'nt have the volume turned up...seen the building on fire but thought it was just a highrise in downtown Chicago so started to flip to other stations,,,It was on everywhere so thats when I turned up the volume,,I could'nt believe it and that was before the other plane hit,then they showed that,,,,,O"hare Internation airport is I think the 3rd or 4th largest airport in the states I think and to pass by that and not see a plane in the air was a very wierd feeling since all air traffic was grounded,,,,,,I'll never forget that day,,and those innocent people

Story of a flower

last line
Filled my dreams throughout the night

sorry

Story of a flower

A ROSE

I came upon a Rose one time
Awash in morning dew
Just gently holding on to it
Filled my mind with thoughts of you
So I took it inside and placed it
In a vase of crystal glass
To watch it slowly open
As time would silently pass
Watching the peddles parting
Preciously begining to bloom
With grace and so much beauty
Filling the entire room
When it was done it's journey
Becoming a Rose so bright
It's meaning and it's purpose
Filled my dreams throught the night
Chris

Winter Time

SNOWFLAKES

I sit here watching snowflakes
So lightly falling down
Floating in the air
Gently kissing the ground
One by one they gather
Creating a scene of white
So peacefully and silent
As day drifts into night
Waking to find a portrait
Outside of winters display
Keeping in mind it's wonder
Ason the ground it lay
Chris

RE: DO YOU

Hey I'm a truck driver I dont swear (just kidding) ever been in Chicago rush hour traffic

what song can you not listen to

What song can you not listen to without it getting you chocked up,,I have left midnight mass before when they start sing SILENT NIGHT dont know why

RE: Single Nova Scotians

hello I'm new at this so just getting to see what to do here exactaly, so will have time to learn before starting back at my other job next week,,,,,,,hope I can fit in somewhere

RE: What food could......

I hate cabbage

RE: What food could......

I can't eat mushrooms
also the little girl I used to be with,,,,she would eat a jar of olives if you let her,,while she watched TV,,then shed drink the juice,one year for her B-day I bought her one of those huge jars of olives at the grocery store,,,the big 1 litre or 2 litre,cant remember

winter rose

A WINTER ROSE

I was awakened by a dream last night
That brought back memories of old
I wish I could have stayed asleep
To watch my dream unfold
It kinda took my breath away
For you were here with me
Just walking in a park somewhere
With two hands joined faithfully
Although it being winter time
The season that it snows
I was amazed to look out the window
And see in full bloom a rose
Seemed odd to look at that flower
Among everything covered in white
Standing there so all alone
In all it's color so bright
Was it trying to tell me something
Like maybe it needed a home
To come inside and be cherished
Tired of being outside and alone
Chris

A special Birthday

This one I wrote to that same friend of mine out west when she turned "50",,,,,,,her husband got here nothing and she told me she went to bed and cried herself to sleep

A VERY SPECIAL BIRTHDAY

Yvonne

Fiffty years ago today
Something very special took place
You were sent here to this earth by GOD
To join the human race
HE knew then the world needed
Someone caring and so kind
To go through life helping others
Knowing your heart would shine
You've helped so many in times of need
And gone out of your way
Just to make sure that person
Has a happier and brighter day
So never think of your birthday
Means another year your growing old
Think of it as one more year
You had to share your heart of Gold
Chris

Valentine's Day

yes got divorced over it,that was 15 years ago before I met Lisa and Krista

RE: A card from my son

also, I have a son too who last christmas gave me a card with a hand drawn picture of a truck I once drove,,and a note,,I still have that today and will for the rest of my life,,,,,,,just reading it gets me a bit chocked up,even today,,but I've been told befor I'm emotional with thigs like that,,,,

RE: A card from my son

That is one very special son you have

Valentine's Day

I wrote this for a very good friend of mine last year,,,,,,,we dated in high school,,,,then she got married,,,I got married (I bought a truck),,then got divorced,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,but she lives out in Gibbons alberta and ,<<she's still married,but her husband does nothing for her,,,she turned 50 yrs old last Jan 20 2006,,,,and he bought her nothing,,,,,,so I wrote her a poem for her birthday also,,,,,,,,,,,,,maybe post that later
Chris

"THE FOURTEENTH DAY OF FEBUARY"

Valentine's day is supposed to be
A day when Love is shown
To those we trully care about
Assuring them, our Love is known
On this day hearts are bought
Made of chocolate, candy, or cake
And given to those we Love the most
With the promise, that we make
The chocolate soon will melt away
And the cake will dissapear
The candy only last's a while
Are these things truly, so dear
I know of a heart not made of cake
Or any of those mentioned above
The heart I know of beats inside of me
To a timeless rythm, of LOVE
Chris

LITTLE THINGS

Thank you

Dearest "Krista"

Hi;, I was with a girl for ten years,,when I met her her daughter was 14mths old,I raised her as my own till she was 12 1/2 years old,,when he mom went and found somebody on the computer,have not seen her in over a year now and I knew I probably won't again,,,so I wrote this for her and framed it and left it with her when I left,,

""DEAREST KRISTA""

As you go on in life
I may not be there if you fall
But I want you to always know
Whenever you want to you can call
You'll always be remembered
As your Love i'll always keep
There'll be a place in my heart
I hold for you so deep
If I never get to see you
Again as days go by
Your memory is with me forever
All I need is to close my eyes
So if we meet by chance somewhere
Forgive me if I can't say
These things that I want you to know
As if it were yesterday
I don't want you to see a teardrop
For you might think I'm sad
It's not that way at all though
Each deardrop, is for the good times we had
Love Da-Da

LITTLE THINGS

LITTLE THINGS

It's the little things I remember
Like when you were learning to walk
And the little words you used to say
When you were begining to talk

Your little hand holding mine
Those memories I'll always keep
The little hugs you gave to me
When I layed you down to sleep

The little dresses I bought for you
The tiny shoes that you wore
Will forever be remembered
As those days will be no more

I hope in life we meet again
For even a little while
So I can tell you once again
How much I miss your little smile
Chris

RE: Depression...

have been dealing with depresssion for just over a year now,,(since the split) wrote a lot of poems about it and yes even things that I wanted to end it all,,,,,,,,,,,,my 1 daughter tried to help me through it,,,ended up in a hospital over it,and was put on prozac(quick way to suicide),,,then tried Paxill, went off it on my own,,,but trying to get through it now on my own,,,,not easy
Chris

Little Things

The first one i posted i misspled the last word in the last line,,,,,,,,dissregard the first one

Little Things

LITTLE THINGS

It's the little things I remember
Like when you were learning to walk
And the little words you used to say
When you were begining to talk

Your little hand holding mine
Those memories I'll always keep
The little hugs you gave to me
When I layed you down to sleep

The little dresses I bought for you
The tiny shoes that you wore
Will forever be remembered
As those days will be no more

I hope in life we meet again
For even a little while
So I can tell you once again
How much I miss your little smile

Chris