i gotta say it's 50% / 50% default , maybe it's what she say's ? how she moves? perhaps something she wrote that sparked interest it's time spent with that person that really should alter the default 50/50 or 0/0 for both man or woman but thats wishful thinking LOL normally it's 1 thing RIGHT NOW that gets it going and when it gone for some reason, hey game over man
Thats because one that are not legit and honest out number the ones that are by 4 to 1 well number is way higher but ya get the idea lol i'm honest call it as i see it, but always open to seeing other views and results it's been said people can change , i haven't see true results of this more like people emulate but at the core all ways be what they are
all i know is my self, can't say i give a flying freddy about the next guy but i think for me top things to get down solid is provide Her best my ability in any shape of form, never leave her side good or bad.
Don't feel bad, i never had friends my age if any at all pretty much a outcast, class clown as time went on i got more intelligent and developed strong skills in computers both hardware/software i prefer someone older mainly because there software matchs the hardware LOL
age doesn't bother me when it's in a respectable range , not something like 15 yr going out with someone that 30-34 people are too busy i like this about her or i like that, i hate this, i hate that ect amplify that way of thinking on a thousandth scale humanity in gonna be the next thing the endangered list LOL advice: love the things at that different, strange and ain't normal <within a limit> called being unique
times come when i have nothing left to bare.. sit and stare relive each time,, my own nightmare..
twisted and shattered i try to find that part of me that is scattered but i see only what is left words of hate i have spoken the rage comes back,, alone i drop,, i have been broken..
i try and some say i live,, there in me a twisted sense of rigorous code of honor,, but haunted by my fundamental rage to slash out at pain.. while it is self gets betrayed by my equally passionate human side..
my nightmare comes when i'm alone.. i reject and i hate all that is shown..
no matter how high i clime,,it seems never reach the top and there always the constant danger of falling..
but yet there remains the indomitable determination to make the climb again.. to fight the red dark hunger that keeps animals apart from men..
i try and some say i live,, there in me a twisted sense of rigorous code of honor,, long dead and forgotten.
but haunted by my fundamental rage to slash out at pain.. that torments my mind, and soul
while it is self gets betrayed by my equally passionate human side.. to hold ground and temper the onslaught . with compassion
i am a hero for a strive against hopeless odds.. but yet i might be a tragic fool for the attempt may very well be doomed from the start.
but yet there remains the indomitable determination to make the climb again.. to fight the red dark hunger that keeps animals apart from men..
i live with my pain in full knowledge of the cost.. i can exemplify the value friendship and love,, know the joy of laughter for i have seen too many tears,,
i cherish life to the fullest for i seen it taken so many times and have felt one lived by so many fears..
i try and some say i live,, there in me a twisted sense of rigorous code of honor,, but haunted by my fundamental rage to slash out at pain.. while it is self gets betrayed by my equally passionate human side..
in my nightmare i fight alone.. rage takes me,, my blood runs cold
i try live with my pain in full knowledge of the cost.. i try exemplify the value friendship and love,, know the joy of laughter for i have seen too many tears,,
but lost in my nightmare when i fight it alone,, haunted by my fears
it's both true and false humans have out grown the use of pheromones as we evolve while others still retain the ability to a degree to detect them, mainly women since they have pretty much the best of everything in terms on sight, smell, understanding ect for men forget it,
life is cruel and unforgiving, nothing is ever given but if you want it bad anuff gotta fight for it with everything ya got little love and faith may move a mountain , but it's will power to keep going after them both
THunder rolls over my head as it begins to rain, in my mind rain drops of images past, present and past wash over me i desperately try to hold onto ones most precious to me only to mourn as they slip my grasp. i try to yell,,but here theres is no sound, i see my image shattered like a mirror at my feet,
< a voice say's > (there's no where to run, theres no reason to fight this , accept this fate , and fall into the graceful arms of your deepest fears your sorrow fuels my fire, this pain is proof for you it's already to late,)
This nightmare haunts me, it's always the same leaving me to live a life as a picture hanging sides ways without a frame,
each time i awake, i reach for nothing and ask my self is this why, only to form a fist and hold tight that which only i can
How hard it weighs on my mind, the last of his kind happiness is just moments of time and still yet hard to find
I hold my self up alone, every day as the rain draws in, trying not to tremble as darkness removes everything from my sight reaching out i grasp the drops, holding them til i bleed
This i whisper is me, these memory's filled with my blood and my tears, if i reach out and grasp something i'll hold tight til i bleed each tear to a part of my soul lost ........
yeah mass is completely screwed up from tax to being forced into paying health insurance it's just getting worse money is being wasted every where not just boston ,, few places like providence and fall river are neglecting there streets fall river being the worst living up to it's name FALL companys taking advance of the new health insurance bs like working 50 hours a week bringing home before taxes 400$ then 300 after then 50$ after health insurance
I rest my back upon a tree, using my sword as a crutch i lean and look over the land. as quickly as the wind of time which blows past my now grey hair a blanket of haunting mist plows over this land. i look down at myself, my armour is covered in blood, my blood. my wounds are deep and painful...
the battle has weakened me...i need to rest. my mind wanders back to a time when peace filled my soul... memories of happiness are the only comfort in this dark place. emptyness fills me i shed a single lonely tear... it flows from my eye like the blood seeping from my wounds. I lower my head in silence...
this moment is broken as i hear a thunder... the wind screams at me like unholy wraiths... my plates of armour clatter as the thunder races across the sky... i hear laughter, so i look to see a dark figure holding a sword in one hand... my eyes meet the glowing blood red eyes protruding from the shadow... it is him again. (still feeble) from the pain I push off my crutch... gathering my stance as i draw my sword.
the pain of my wounds is great, however, i will not show weakness... i stand my ground. (the Paladin stands, in this place of darkness against an enemy that is his equal) ( and knowing he is wounded badly, and that the odds are not in his favor... he does not fluster, he does not back down).
they go blow for blow... strike for strike... every attack counter met by the other... its like the struggle of light over darkness...love over hate...resolution over pain, until the cycle is quickly broken... the Paladin has been struck down... the dark figure stands over what he thinks to be an easy victory...
my strength is all but gone... i'm screaming inside... i'm the only light that shines in this dark place... i have tried so hard, i have battled so long...i've grown tired. i need loving arms to embrace me. i want to hear words of love... but all i hear is the undying thud of pain. my mind clouds with rage. the once soft-light bearing candle of my soul has now become infuriated and burns with powerful fuel...like the breath of a dragon.
(the Paladin rises to his feet, trapping the pain in a place to far away for him to feel... refusing to let the dark figure have this victory).
the Paladin playfully points his sword towards the dark figure...as if taunting him to strike... their swords meet in mid air... words are exchanged... the dark figure laughs, then is silent... the fading red eyes are captivated by the diamond-like gleam of the Paladin...for once the dark figure feels what fear is.
the paladin moves in so fast that to the dark figure he appears as nothing but a blur...the battle ends with the dark figure tasting the Paladin victorious treat.
<i kneel down...it is over now, i say in my mind, it is over. i reach and pull the helm over the dark knight... to my horror and disbelief it is me?
(the paladin traumatized by what he has seen stumbles to get back on his feet)...
he looks back only once...walking, remembering his passed life...everything that has come and gone..people, who shall now only be a memory...his deeds done, and words spoken...
with blood now covering his eyes, he puts his helmet on. looking neither forward nor back as he slowly walks the path into the dark night. tears wash the thoughts down his long face... the bright beacon of light begins to fade in the distance.
< was the best and last thing i've been able to write >
Trust me there are far far dark and worse things that can happen , best i can say because im is a far darker place you need to dominate your strongest desire be it love, sadness, Rage use it as a driving force not let it use you,, ( love your self anuff to find a solution, sadness is the withdrawl of somthing That was, rage to push your mind/body though all the personal demons now and are to come depression is very tuff enemy, and yes it's a enemy make sure not to lose site of that it'll give you focus !
truth is this... no matter who you are or what you look like every one is attractive, maybe not to one or a few but there is someone out there that is.
IN THE BIBLE: soul remains in the body or field plane til time comes for it to be judged in a way it's like sleeping , your not aware whats going on , you have no use of your 5 senses which also is why when people come close to being dead to them judgment happens asap. time is basicly cut&pasted
outside the bible: soul if strong anuff remains in this field of view before over time slowly poofing* and or moving up to the next state of reality
ah hell with all that crap tell you out right what is a turn on for a guy girl/woman that knows what she's doing , when she is doing it no matter what she might be doing and is also highly adaptive to the moment, also that doesn't try to overlap but compliment the man she is with.............
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RE: What is the strangest place that I've ever done it?
behind a church during full mass