Raybear63 Poetry (1)

I sit and stare out the window
The atmosphere cold in here
I almost rise to prepare your meal
Then my mind comes crystal clear

Its been six months since you left home
And I grow wearier every day
I no longer have things to do for you
Nor loving words to say

Our girls have grown and live apart
These days should have been our own
But words were said and deeds were done
And I now face life alone

When people say you cry alone
No truer words were spake
My tears have flown a million fold
Since your freedom you did take

Our friends have all deserted me
Tired of my gloom
But I cannot change my feelings
Of an ever closing doom

I`m terrified of life itself
It’s the future I fear most
Loneliness is a fearful guest
And I`m its tearful host

I take no joy from anything
My books I cannot read
As my eyes are failing fast, my dear
And to my terror this does feed

Because 16 weary years ago
Down the selfsame path you went
Eventually you lost your sight
Your life was broke and bent

You went through pain and agony
But I walked at your side
I held your hand each awful night
When you just cried and cried

We both fell prey to despondency
And I failed you in this time
As I tried to cope with three young girls
And I forgot you too were mine

Forgive me dear for my thoughtlessness
As I let you cope with life alone
I couldn`t share my time with you
So you drifted from our home

But If in God you do believe
His justice has been swift
As I now suffer your old solitude
My future blindness is his gift

I face this stress alone my love
No one here to hold my hand
No words of comfort in my ear
No touching your gold band

My darling friend, I grieve your loss
To our tiny family
But I wish you well and happiness
Where ever you may be