I was socally isolated little by little as I
grew it didnt help to havea family in denial and
ignorant nor resentful of thus male dominated
society and world for that matter as my grandma was
and to lay her head trips on a kid that there was
something wrong with me it stuck like glue
for the longest time and often I questioned myself
I was below average in school and not so wise at
all as a teen my mother one night said to me driving
her car just got my licencse to do so why dont
you ever talk to me or your father let me state that
as I look back insightful knowage was never there
input to us nor guildnace sensing problems and I never
played with mental abuse wasnt that wise so I kept
silent then she in a angered voice states to me I'll
drive you out of your ever loving mother fking mind then
not ever another word of it.yet I didnt realize through
the yrs the bit-h indeed did do just that mental abuse
parania sleep deprivation and social isolation as her
ignorance just deepened my depressoin bad I kept myself
preoccupied with outdoor sports and what ever I could
do around there house I slept alot a good sign of it
as I think back and painfully shy at times too I
just couldnt understand it for the life of me
done normal things worked hard.
I lived with my parent up until my late twenties.then
.. bipolar.. symptoms for almost twenty yrs all of
them then it occurred to me there was nobody to help
nobody to correct the slander of lies the deperssoin
and manupulations the deprivations and mental abuses
till the knowage turned to everyday torment, preocupation
was my friend and still is.simply put the more I realized
,and become aware of the more Im able to control
my life without the medication and counsoling which I never sought treatment for.
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