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Too blind to see what was blatantly in front of me

I had dated a man when I was a young 19 years of age.... It didn't last long , we had gotten along great but just went our own separate ways, relationship-wise and my family had basically told me, "maybe you two are just better off as friends". We continued on over the years as good friends, never argued, always just acting out as the goofy pair, tweedle dee and tweedle dum lol. We brought out the best in eachother, shared secrets and supported eachother through tough times. He had continued on with his relationship, had a son, I had gone on with my life as well, had my 3 kids, gotten married, divorced 6 years later....still we remained good friends. His 8 year relationship ended 6 months ago and. I've been single now for almost 2 years. I've been "dating" here and there and he's still been by my side, giving me fair advice and being a shoulder to cry on when times have gotten tough. This past year I had lost everything, my job, my car, my home, and still, he stood by me, helping out whenever he could. Over this time our friendship has gotten stronger...closer. Now, 22 years after we had initially dated, created a very strong bond over time, its grown more than just a friendship. He kissed me. I wasn't expecting it....I don't think he was either. He just hugged me after and said, "I think its about time to just admit that we both love eachother, its just inevitable".....and really, he's right. We've been right under eachothers noses all along and shared something very special for a very long time. With that said, I thinks its time for me to leave CS. This time for good. I now have what I thought was missing all this time.....though I wasn't missing anything at all. I just was looking for something elsewhere that was already right in front of me. I wish all of you the best. Thank you for making my time here at CS a wonderful and entertaining experience. Within the hour u will be deleting my account permanently. lips wave teddybear
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Open your eyes just a LITTLE wider ;-)

So quick to pass judgement
How long have you known him/her?
3 days? 3 weeks? 3 months? 3 years?
A man spends 10 years working, taking care of his 3 children and cancer stricken wife
His wife passes
He loses his job
He networks online, while emailing resumes, meets new people, chats, blogs
He lied and said he was an accountant when really he was forced to leave his job, due to lack of work
He felt shameful enough because he was homeless and let his family down
The world on his shoulders
He failed
But hd behind what little strength he held onto behind a computer screen, carelessly typing on the keyboard at the local library
In search of caring words.... A friend....some encouragement to repair his already damaged facade
But he said he was an accountant
He lied
He is labeled as a liar, manipulater, a bad man
Was he really?
Because of one untruth?

A woman spends her whole life with negative criticism
As a child......overweight....insecure....poor....unattractive, according to society standard
Bullied to the point of being ridiculed, beaten and spat upon
Time passes, facial features change ...... Though still poor and still overweight, she is beautiful
But just not beautiful enough still for the standof society
She networks online, while emailing resumes, meets new people, chats, blogs
She edits her profile photos so she appears thinner, taking mostly facial photos to focus more on her beautiful face rather than her curvy plump body.
She wants to feel accepted by those who normally would scoff at her if they were to meet in person
In search of caring words.... A friend....some encouragement to repair her already damaged facade
But she is fake
Her photos were misleading
She is labeled as a liar, manipulater, a bad woman
Is she really?
Because of one untruth?

Many people say and do many things for many different reasons. If you don't know a man or a woman, never assume the kind of person they truly are based on a single mistake they make. Some people may say or do something randomly on impulse because its how they're feeling during that moment. There's always a reason, a purpose for our actions. There's no such thing as a bad man or bad woman because they've made a mistake. You never really know unless you've walked a mile in their shoes. So unless you're perfect, which is certainly not possible, carefully view yourself, your own misgivings and embrace your own faults before you judge others.


professor
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A little nervous...

Ok so I've just been informed today that I have two auditions this Friday for two different bands. One is for lead singer of a band and I'm supposed to meet up with them at a local high class restaurant in the next town over and then shortly after I have to be in my own town at the local club I usually sing at and the band members will be travelling there from a different state to come hear me and they are looking for backup female vocalists. Wasn't really expecting to be sought after by one band, let alone two. Keeping my fingers and toes crossed and who knows where it may lead me. head banger wink wave
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Not afraid...

Last night while I was checking in on the blogs, another blogger had the right idea by posting a video.....which would be nice if everyone did....I've tried it once before so I think I've been inspired to do it yet again, with a different one ... though my self expression is through music. I sing, and have since I was 5 years old....was involved in theater for many years so here ya go folks, this is me...enjoy the video, and enjoy the day!wave

Well, I guess only videos from youtube can be posted on this thing lol .... ah well, this is the link to my video .... hope you take the time to watch hug

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Tell me your dreams.....

Everyone has hopes and dreams.....there are those who are able to accomplish them and those who never get the chance. I can only hope to be the former some day cool

My dream is to own my own house....or even a ranch with acreage. Then I want to travel the world. What are your hopes and dreams? conversing wink
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Ouch!

So I've wanted to do this for years and finally had it done, Red has had her nose pierced. Yes....it was very painful, but I think once it heals some, it will be worth it. I'm sure there are some positive and negative opinions on this but it was my decision. wink I like thumbs up

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Any piercings or tattoos that anyone would like to share? ....call me a strange one, but I love that kind of stuff blushing cool
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hey! I swear I didn't do it!

sooo since the blogs are a bit quiet this evening, morning or afternoon, I thought I'd pop in and make a little music dancing

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I hope you don't mind....

While viewing a profile I was reading....and yes, I do actually read what's written on a profile lol... but something did catch my attention and wished to share it because it kinda struck a cord with me. I always wondered... yes, I've dated, but it seems to me, not many are really interested in someone who's normal, down to earth, isn't afraid to love, takes relationships for what they are, doesn't cheat, doesn't lie, just wants to be happy being me. They'd rather have a woman who's just wild...or is a risk taker...or is just gorgeous, so to speak (in their eyes)...oh heck, I'm just me and I get left behind every time. Each time alone once again. They don't stick around, they're always looking for something better, more enticing...something different. I don't know, I guess what I'm trying to say is....well here is the little bit I have to share from this particular profile. I hope you don't mind, but I thought it was worth sharing...maybe others may agree...

"we all are searching for what we call our "perfect love", and some of us will find it and then there are those that can never have it for some reason maybe they are meant to help bring something special to others and show them that they can love again and be loved."

Maybe I'm just one of those that can never have it....maybe it is for a reason, one never knows dunno

heart wings
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Beautiful

Beauty is most certainly in the eye of the beholder
There are those that one may find absolutely gorgeous, yet another would look in their direction and cringe.
There are those that may seem less attractive to some yet be the most beautiful individual on the inside...
While some may seem asthetically pleasing to look at, yet such an ugly soul on the inside.
Is it really our appearances that make us attractive to others or is it something totally different...just a thought to ponder if it hasn't been pondered profusely enough already.
Some say it's how a man or woman carries themselves....their personality that makes them appear attractive. So what is "beauty" really, but someone's...anyone's personal point of view. Because everyone's view is different and what they consider to be beautiful is their own unique opinion.

Just a thought.



lips
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Men are from Mars......

Ok so I met you 10 years ago. You were dating a friend of mine and I didn't know you all too well. I would just hear so many wonderful things about you.

I'm like ok, wonderful...she has a great man, that's fantastic.
Haven't talked to my friend in at least 8 years. Forgotten all about this wonderful man she spoke of.

So I decide to go out one night because the kids were away for the weekend, I went to a local club...many friends go there that I've known for many years.I see a man, approaches me. You look SO familiar, he says....well I should, I've met you a long time ago. And I told him about my friend....and we even had many mutual acquaintances, but never really talked.

After the club had closed, he asked me if I wanted to go out for a late night breakfast. We did, and met some friends there
He had come by the house afterward.....we sat on the couch until 6am, just talking. He's going through a divorce....a very messy one. At this point, with what I'm currently going through, we both just needed a friend to talk to.

He left around noon....and came back just hours later....Spent some time.... He was telling me that his birthday JUST passed a few days ago, was kind of disappointed that all he had gotten from his friends and family was one card... Not so much dissappointed in the lack of materialistic gifts, but more of the simple fact that he just wasn't in their thoughts. So I decided to bake him a birthday cake, candles and all and bought him a simple card and told him now you have TWO cards, happy birthday! He was very touched by this, and thanked me sincerely.

Well...to make a long story short, he was coming to my house every day for several days. We were getting to know eachother and he would put his arms around me...gave me kisses...get little gifts for my kids...offer to do things for me...told me that he really liked me....leading me to believe it was going somewhere..

Then out of the blue it seems we hit a stop sign

He was working. I asked him if he wanted to go out that night and do something...

First excuse...he was working really late...ok understandable
But then about 15 minutes into the conversation, he had mentioned he had a few tickets to some event for that night that he was going to go to with some friends. Then not much later in the conversation, he said he was going out with his buddies to play pool. I was rather dissappointed that with all these things that he had plans to do, he had turned my offer down before he had even accepted the offers of others. He initially had no plans but to get some rest after work....but then things just kind of came up "all of a sudden"....

So I had asked him...ok, we've been beating around the bush a bit...

You're at my house every day....because you want to be
(most friends I have, I'm lucky if I see them 3-4 times a month
You put your arms around me
You kiss me
You win the approval of my kids
You tell me you really like me

But with this he says..

We're just friends.

I haven't heard from him since....no text messages....no phone calls....no response from him at all...not even as a friend.





No, not poetry, just a random pondering of recent events


confused dunno
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But I am not going to tell....

Yes, I have a favorite blogger.
Though I'm sure we'll never meet...
Very intelligent writer,
Quick with his humorous words and wit...
Handsome and kind face.
He really has no idea...
But no matter though, it's just a thought...
Just a smile to brighten my day...
Just something simple and innocent as that.
When I close the laptop for the day
And all is said and done
I go about my normal busy life in the real world
As anyone else does
Ah and so is life

lol

hmmm
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Waiting for spring..

snowed in
Snow landscapes
Icy sidewalks
Bare trees
Bitter cold air
Cloudy skies
Ground hog says early spring.....groundhog
I think not
Still more days of snow in the forecast
Already still buried in about 2 feet
Waiting anxiously for all the snow to melt
To be able to see the grass beneath it
Smell the flowers and trees in the air
To see the sunshine once again
Hear the birds
See people walking their dogs
Put the bulky clothing away
..and open up all the windows
Yep anxiously waiting
Waiting for spring
Not exactly poem material......lol but it's what's on my mind currently. But it's whatever cool

dancing dog cartwheel rose
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