"REMEMBERING"

All Of That "Trying To Forget" Shit Does?........................... Is Bring Back All Of Those Yesterdays ........That Are Impossible To Hide Away ..................Or Forget...........I Had Someone One Time That Said To Me.............."Just Don't Think About It"............. That's So Easy For Someone To Say....Why?
Because They Have Not The Slightest Idea That "Trying To Forget?"........ Is Impossible To Do...Totally

How Does One Forget Talking With Someone One Minute
And Suddenly...In A Flash?.........(Well...I'll Say It In A Nice Way)....They Are Gone
That's When ....The Person That Has Witnessed The Happening?....Starts Cursing God Himself

Yeah...It's All Coming Back Now
I Can Still See Ole "Spider Jackson" (A Black Guy)
He Used To Tell Me Stories Of Things That Happened When He Was A Kid In The Deep South
Of How A Tornado Came Through His Town And Leveled Everything...Except For One Thing That It Did Not Touch.......(A Baby In A Cradle)...I Never Forgot Him Telling Me That Story...And The Expression On His Face
As He Was Telling Me His Story
Me?..Of Course A New Bee There At The Time?....Needed Someone Like Him...Because Most Of The Guys There?...They Didn't Want To Get To Know Me...In Fact?...Some Didn't Even Want To Know My First Name

(I Found Why... Later... Through Ole Spider).....He Told Me The Reason When I Asked Him This Question
"Why Is It That Most Of These Guys Are Acting Like That They Can't Hear Me?.... And Are Avoiding Me?....And Don't Want To Get To Know Me"?

He Would Say This To Me With His Great Way Of Saying It...With His Philosophy
He Answered Me With These Words

"Man?...They Don't Mean To Come Off Being That They Don't Like You"..."They Just Don't Want To Get Close Man"..."Because If You Were To Catch One?...Then They End Up Feeling Real Bad"...."And Man?... I'll Tell Ya... That's One Thing That Everyone Is Trying To Avoid...So Man?..Don't Take It Personal...Everybody Is Doing The Down Counting
Every Day That Goes By?...Is One Day Closer To Gettin Ta Hell Out Of Here"
(And?...He Continued)
"You Know Man? ...When We Are Born?...There's A Number That Signifies Our End"
"And We Cannot Avoid That Number...Whether It's Crossing The Street?...Or Slipping In A Puddle"
"Or Catching A V C Bullet...There Is No Need To Be Worrying Man...Because?...When It's Your Time?"
"Man...It's Your Time"

(And Then?..After Saying All Of That?)
(And With His Back To Me... As He Would Start Walking Away?)
(You Could Hear Him Singing That Song By The "Animals")

("We Gotta Get Out Of This Place"..."If It's The Last Thing That We Ever Do")
("We Gotta get Out Of This Place"..."Girl? There's A Better Life..... For Me ...And You"

Spider Jackson?......He Was A Good Great Friend ...That Helped Me In Many A Way To Try And Get Through It All... With His Words.....And Of Course?..... The Way He'd Say It To Me

Ole "Spider?".... Had Made It Through 344 Days There
He Had Just 21 Days Left To Go Before He Could Get The Hell Out Of There...And Go Home
And That Guy Would Make Me Laugh By Saying
"I'm So Short... That I Can Sit On A Razor Blade...... And Swing My Legs"
(Referring To How Long It Would Be Before He'd Get His Marching Orders)

But...Unfortunately?......Only Just Two Days Later?....Ole Spider Met His End..... When The Platoon He Was With?...... Ended Up Being Ambushed....Nobody Made It Out Of That Alive
When I Got The News?...I Literally Fell Apart...Not For Me.....But For Him...And Yeah...I Cursed God

So?...There Is No Way To Forget What You Do Not Want To Remember....Is There?....Nope...No Damned Way

Looking On Back?...What Did Over 57,000 Deaths Accomplish?
Not One Damned Thing At All.....Absolutely....... NOTHING!!!