AUTISM IS NO LAUGHING MATTER
I am a 53 yr old autistic man. When I was growing up Autism was not recognized here in Canada
. It wasn't until 1985 that Doctors in Canada stated that Autism was real 
. Still because it was new and the doctors did not know all the signs to look for I still slipped through the cracks .Mean while I had to learn the hard way to protect my emotions from being hurt verbally and physically
. I did this by building walls and keeping people as far away from myself as possible. I still kept who I was because I did not want to be anybody but myself. I did make friends but they were far between. They actually had to basically force themselves into my life and get to know me and accept me the way I was.Out of desperation I went on dating sites and eventually found someone to marry. Because I did not at the time realize that my emotions were in control I looked away and ignored the type of person I had married. It turns out that she has to be in control all the time and if she does not get her way then she will use a tone of voice that makes me feel degraded. She also because she does not or will not accept that I do not think the same way that normal people think, holds things against me and will not have sex with me. At the age of 4 our son tested positive for Autism and has been getting help ever since. He is now 14 and he loses his temper a lot with me stating that he is going to hurt me etc........
This is why I am now on this site. I am not looking to divorce my wife I am just just trying to look for female friends here close to where I live and spend time with them away from my house and wife in private where she can not see because if she finds out living in hell would be better. Also I hope these friends would also be the type to have sex with me when we are spending time together. These friends are what you call FWB's. The reason I am looking for someone between 18 to 25 is because they would be a real blessing to me emotionally. I understand that it would have no strings attached but that still does not mean we can not be friends and also lovers.
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I do understand the pain you are going through and your wife is taking on the masculine role here and being domineering, controlling, nothing healthy about this.
you have to take the reins and grab the nettle. You and only you can decide not to take this treatment. Being strong in yourself is not wrong, neither is having a sit down chat , adult conversation that does not end in your wife getting out of things with a row. Being controlled is horrible and I have experienced it.
It takes away your self esteem, it takes away your confidence as a man in the relationship.
I really do hope that you go to somebody professional. I pray that this will work out, you seem a very nice person and deserve to be happy. Being Autistic doesnot exclude you from respect, love and a happy marriage. Best of luck x
Here is a small extract, but you can listen for yourself and read the transcript.
Over the past two decades, our cultural understanding of autism and what it means to be autistic has grown - though we have a long way to go. But there are entire generations of people who grew up when the popular conception of autism was a far cry from how it’s now understood.
It meant a whole host of people who grew up feeling like they didn’t fit in, but never quite knowing why.
They were autistic, but undiagnosed. And when a diagnosis did come as an adult – it was often revelatory and life-changing.
On All in the Mind this week, 'hidden histories’ of late-diagnosed autistic adults.Sana Qadar: Over the past few decades, our cultural understanding of autism and what it means to be autistic has grown, but there are entire generations of people who grew up when the popular conception of autism was a far cry from how it is now understood.
Dani Croaker: When I was a kid in the '70s and a teen in the '80s, autism was what males had, and you were either a non-speaking autistic young boy who may have intellectual difficulties as well and need loads and loads of support. And then Rain Man came, and so Rain Man with the savant type of characteristics is what I thought autism was.
Sana Qadar: It has meant many, many people grew up feeling like they didn't fit in but never quite understanding why. They were autistic but undiagnosed.
Dani Croaker: So I had no idea I was autistic at all, and certainly around my family and friends that was never a possibility of what my life experience could be framed by.
Please accept my sincere apologies. Perhaps it is my email inbox that has so many adverts when I
open it daily that I just had a quick look.
I myself have practiced Hatha Yoga and Raja Yoga since a young girl of 15. I found it terrific for me mentally and physically. It started up the day. i would get up early to do it.
It strengthens the mind and even learning about the breathing was and still is a wonderful way to deal with negativity and to keep the mind balanced .
I also read quite a bit of Eastern wisdom.
Again, I am sorry for taking that up incorrectly. Wishing you a happy day.
Rosemarie