will i be forgiven? :(

I met a guy with a beautiful heart on this site, connecting singles. He was going through a hard time. I knew it. I love him very much i have no words to say how much i love him and i know he loves me because he rarely gets angry at me when i was fighting with him. I was fighting with him cos he was not having time to be with me. And he had no clear mind to spent time with me. I knew this.. but couldn't stop fighting with him... :(
Some times i was so rude to him..not because i don't love him.. but i don't know because of why.. may be because i was scared that i'll loose him.. or because i was selfish..
last time we talked on the phone i was rude to him.. and now he is gone some were.. i don't know for sure... his phone is no longer working.. :'(
may be had enough of me.. for not understanding him..
but i love him... and i miss him so much..
i want to talk to him just once..
to say that i'm sorry for all the things i have done to hurt him..
i really am sorry..
will u forgive me?