When did I become Alone & Lonely???
I was just viewing the different areas of this site... I was in the middle of doing a search when it hit me! "When did I become alone and lonely??? This is a scary realization isn't it?? A little over 2 years ago I had a life partner-- my best friend... We were best friends for 18 years.. someone I totally relied on being there for me.. I was never alone - even when he wasn't around I knew he was there for me... then one day he was no longer there... RIP my daring... my first thought, "I'll never do this alone"... but day by day somehow I found the strength to go on.. to be there for my son, my family and friends... now 2 years later I realize I'm alone... and I'm not young anymore... I don't feel old but I'm no longer young... but I'm single - I should be young! You know what I'm saying -- it was okay to be young and single but 44 and widowed/single-- that scares me! I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life but there are not very many men out there my age and single... ok right now I'm having a panic attack... breath, breath,,, I'll be ok right? Yes, I will do this,, I will be ok... and if it's meant for me to be alone and lonely for the rest of my life will so be it... right?????
Comments (4)
lonely and alone are two different things, i was in a relatinship for three year with a guy and i was s lonely and yet now i am single i may be alone but i'm not lonely as i am free to do what i please when i please although one day i would like to meet mr right and have the life i once had when i was married as i miss that life
wish you all the best, in the mean time your never be lonely when you have friends here on cs xx
life in a bad way. I took it really hard and it has taken three years for me to come here to try to start over.You are not alone .
there more of us out here and ya it's scary but we have to start somewhere.
Im in a country I wasnt born in...I realise now I have no friends here...to go out impossible on my own and yet its hard to make friends here!!! I dont know how we do this...but you are not alone.