homeless as always

homeless yes I was for a decade and half. during our midwestern cold months I held
housing about as long as I could tolerate it and come spring I packed up my gear as I
threw away all my materail things and hit the woods like a bum I put on alot of miles
with my trusted bicyle later cargo trailer I pulled behind it.
ignorance was my biggest downfall along with severe depressoin of circumstances yet like
perhaps alot of people I kept myself busy in life before and then sometimes preoccupations
I always kept myself busy felt like a purpose.outdoors I read alot of local news papers
and listened to the radio news and I could always admire the scenary watching the wildlife
about it was a welcomed relief that didnt seem so primitive in my views of society at times
conflicts of goverments,paranoia,cold wars,assured mutual nuclear distruction policy.
assinations sponsered by out country,on and on.crazy it is.
life isint always so grand the elements kicks my but sometimes rain dampnes bugs and heat
like in a oven and stink 12"of snow on the ground and even snowing yet I camped alot
better the the city life were tolerances are a fragile thing in depressed areas like the
homeless areas (shelters) soup kitchens people go off on others or even structures some
times mismangement is rampant a tool for the players of stress to maintain there many street
resourses.
I didnt bother trying to improve my life I was shocked as I lived and realized more and more
yet the effects of depressoin took its toll upon my rattionale sometimes as I was entitled
to get my drivers license reinstated I was lost homeless and made a few errors of directions
and a place far from my home area too much stress to even try to locate the court I had to
visit for paying my ticket there rule no mail and even after being stated the amount you had
to revisit again or payit all off in person after a decade I was detremined to make life a
bit easier so I did with the help of a relitive and I could once again drive for myself
then I finally realized what I always wanted to know and life was tolerable to a point to
be able to maintain housing but there are those times Id like to give up and resort to
living as a bum again as circumstances happen as I silently reflect in disbelief it happens
quite often but thats life the farm