after he dissappear, the 364 email comes

he write to me:
"I don't run away and will not...but you often disappointment so much...everytime when I think that we are understanding each other you go the other way...you did ask me to meet you on msn...I told you I don't want it...but finally I did..because I don't want to loose you....I also said that I will not call you because I wanted to meet you not knowing your voice...I would love it that we would have met in shenyang only knowing things about each other and nothing else....would have made it very surprising and speaking english on the phone is very difficult....you wanted that I would call you...you wanted to hear my voice...I didn't wanted that...but finally again you did change my mind and I did call you....so everytime I do things for you!!...things you want and I do them!!...and I feel that we are coming closer to each other....I am very honest when I say that I loved hearing your voice...you do have a gorgeous voice and you were also excited to hear me as you did not expect me to call you...but I did...did that for you!!!!!!!.....so yes I am disappointed....I hoped that you would finally find out that you also feel something for me...do something for me...I am not looking for a friend...I have told you that...I am looking for a woman...a woman who loves me as much as I love her......and every time we come closer to eachother you don't go in the same direction with me...you hide....you don't do anything for me...and yes ofcourse I want to see you...see you on a photo and don't say that you have send me 3.....and ofcourse I bring up the subject of the photos again because yesterdaynight when we did call you did excite me also...you are a gorgeous woman with a gorgeous voice...but you are to afraid to take a change in life...to afraid to open your heart for me...to except me for what and who I am....if you want me...realy want me...and I mean with all your heart!!...you also have to accept me and the way I am...I except you the way you are...and I love you for that!!....so no...I don't want to loose you and I don't run away....I am there...but you also have to understand that I am disappointed in the way you are to me....when a man is so much interested in you that he will come to shenyang only for you...to meet you...see you...and see if we match...you also have to understand that if you don't give him the feeling that you are also interested in him...want him...want to meet him...see him....you have to understand that I AM DISAPPOINTED....and you have to understand also that we can't go only on the chinese way!!...I am european...you are chinese...so we have to meet in the middle...I am willing to do that...but I have the feeling that you will not accept the way I am...I am european...you are chinese and I respect that!!....so if you want to go on with me...want to see if we match...if I am your man...and you are my woman...we both have to work on that...and I WANT THAT!!...want that very much....since I have heard your voice I am very much interested in you...as a woman ...and as a woman in my life!!...and not as a friend!!.... if you want me you also have to show me that you want me!!!....
and that you are scared is crazy...I will not come to shenyang to meet you if you don't want me...so just tell me if you want me or not...and if you say no...I WILL NOT COME AND MEET YOU!!!.....
and u had said we stop about photo...yes but we did also agree on stop asking me to come on msn..but I did...for you!!...and also agree on not to call...but I did...only for you!!!!!!!!!!....
...my god you don't know how happy you could make me by just sending me a photo of you...a good photo...don't you understand that I want to see the woman I dream of...the voice I have been dreaming of all night!!!........WHY DON'T YOU GIVE US...YOU + ME... A CHANGE????


I DONT WANT TO HURT AND MISUNDERSTANDING EVERY SINSERE HEART I HAD MEET AS FRINED, IF HE ISNOT SCAMMER.