ONLY ONE YOU(BLANKET ON SNOW)for Johnny

I went for a walk today,and I thought I saw you again~but of course,it wasn`t you......I wanted to call out to you-surely,that wouldn`t have been realistic-who I saw could not have the same smile,that`s true,~it wasn`t you.......There was no casual stride,or a hip slung to one side,or a thumb that dangled your hand from a pocket.I didn`t recognize the same slip of hair that wouldn`t stay put,I just wished I had kept some bit of it in a locket~no,it wasn`t you I saw.........Before the person I saw turned around,I prayed,"Dear Lord,let it be him".There have been so many faces since you left,that resembled you-I mighted have acted on a whim~But I knew in my heart,it wasn`t you.......I thought I heard you say,oh so casually,the other day..Just talking about things a young man like you would say,about life-in the usual way~it wasn`t really you.......In this complicated world of ours,you tried desperately to make your points clear.I can`t forget the sound of your voice,and the echo of familiar phrases that remain,still so dear~yes,it could have been you......There were times I wished I could take back what I had said,but back then,I didn`t care.And when you walked away from me,my pride kept me from calling you back-why didn`t I dare?~it will never be you again.......I`ve thought about my memories and what we`ve shared,still wishing I had listened to what you had to say,and maybe hold you,near me-one more time.And then I`d say,"I love you".~Still,I wish the person I saw today -would have been you......Now,You can only be in my heart.