Afterthoughts

Sometimes while cruising life's highways I have encountered unpredictable stops that forced me to change direction from the course I had been on. Many of these stops on the "highway" had to do with family and career, whether they be changes in jobs, moving or taking more time to be a Mom and less time being the workaholic I often (still) rely on to fulfill my life.

In the past year I have found myself stopping to see if my life will be taking a turn toward a person who may fulfill an empty space in my heart. The first time I actually had dreams of a future only to find it was the wrong dream to have. So I continued on my set path with no thoughts of "looking" for a specific person, place or thing to fill that space.

Recently I joined CS (5 weeks ago) and began the process of weeding out people who seemed to be of less than reputable intentions from one or two for whom we may hold some interest for each other. This is a normal process I think and one not to be taken lightly if the objective is to find a life partner.
At some point you come to an agreement that you want to pursue further attempts at getting to know one another and during this process you find it's good or it's not. What a process it can be! Establishing bonds of similar interests, building a foundation of trust becomes the primary pursuit in these communications. Sometimes it just doesn't go the way I hope for so I find myself analyzing what was right and what was wrong about a particular situation or encounters. Self analysis can be torture! So, I have decided to relegate this torment to things of the past and allow them nothing more than a few afterthoughts. I think I'll like myself much better this way.

Happy Day of Love to all on February 14th.