hey its me again

i must tell you all i love the lord, at lest i tell my self so, but i dont know how i say i love him and dont always do what he ask then again maybe i dont know what real love is you see all my life i have been fighting to achive being afraid to give up because i dont liek to quite but have you notice sometimes the more you pray the more crappp come your way, well, today was one of those days i felt like shitttttt and what did i do yes you right prayed some more ah sound crazy right i know i know but sometimes the way to stop a fire is not to out it, just stop it from spreading.