BEING INLOVE...

Being inlove with someone, is the most incredible feelings in the world. It's a feeling that can either help you, save you, or destroy you. It's a feeling every human being on earth should experience.

I am and will most probably always be inlove, with my ex boyfriend. I never knew what being inlove felt like, and to be honest i didnt really even know what it ment. We had been going out for afew months, until i felt it. It hit's you in the heart so hard, in the most intense, personal, most emotional moment you have together.That's when i knew i was inlove with him, and once youve caught it, it'll never let go, it'll never fade away. Me and my ex had been through ALOT.

At times it was so hard, and other times, we had the most amazing moments of our lives. There was times i felt like i was the most lukiest and happiest girl in the world. It's impossible to describe, because it's such a spiritual feeling. No relationships are ever easy, or are even ment to be. By going through hard times, helps you both learn and both become stronger together. We definitly grew stronger together, but eventually problems caught up with us, and sooner or later we lost the fight with reality. Things just wernt working out, and the more we tryed to push it away, the more it seemed to pull us down. It was effecting our relationship and eventually it was tearing us both apart... We had lost... Everything around us seemed to attack us, to try and destroy us. Then thats when it accured to me that it's obviously not ment to be.After 5 hard months it was over.

I hated accepting it, and even admitting it to myself. But i knew it all along. I guess the good thing from it all,is that we both learnt something out of it. To this day, i still sometimes cry at night, wishing i could take back all the shit that happened between us.Things around me remind me of him. My heart literally aches inside, and i know that i still love him. But however, weve had or journey.

You know who who u are, and all i want to say is that, no matter how much u dont wanna baleve it, or how much u try to deny it to urself, i still love u. I know we went throught alota bullshit, and things that we'll never forget, becoz it's affected and scared us.But ive caught the one thing that'll never leave me, even if i wanted it to. I miss you, love you and i still care about you. I always will. I'm not asking for you to take me back, or even ever talk to me again for the rest of your life, but you know what i'm saying is true.I'll always be here for you, for enything, no matter what. Unfortunatly thats what falling inlove does to you. I don't wanna date other guys or be with anyone else, but i know that i need to move on...

I'm still thinking of you.....

Love....

Shayna