HOLIDAYS- Not for the faint of Heart. ( Archived) (11)

Or? LOL.....maybe it is for everyone that chooses to participate.
Holidays have often been pensive and sometimes more extreme than I really wanted. Of course there were Holidays that were also very satisfying though that seems to be forever long ago. This will be a first Holiday that my Mother will be absent as she passed away in January, But you see she was like this adhesive that brought not only family together but even the 3 music groups that she directed and participated in, her Church where she volunteered just to keep it from closing. Her Life really did hold so many people together yet it seems that instead of honoring her Life that most have become jealous of each other and blaming for her early passing. I have not spoken with any of them for months and I admit it is disconcerting. Being completely alone, especially during the holiday is not so great.

I do wish that for others that this Holiday is quite the opposite.
How do others feel about this season?

Hello Dragos
I am sorry for your loss, and it must be hard times for you.
This will be my 16th year alone, and to be honest it is not an easy time.
Quite rightly everyone are with there families doing there thing, and so it should be, but even someone like me, not an emotional type, do miss being part of it.
It doesn't get easier, I just accept it.

I totally understand what you mean rebel. Time does keep moving on.

Certain holidays for myself are bittersweet as they are a mixture of remembered tragedies and celebrations.

Seems to be the same for a lot of people as they seem to be more excited or snarly! lol It just reminds me that people think too much sometimes and get themselves into a funk.

So perhaps try something new that you've not done before - go to a community dinner to share the experience with new people, hold an open house yourself (invite your neighbors), adopt a family etc. Volunteer at a shelter .... I think when we open our hearts to others we are more blessed than them. Its good to give.

I actually did go out and make sure some others had what they need for their Thanksgiving Dinner on Thursday. As for me I am just doing my best to stay warm. I think I will either sleep through it or if I am in the mood play some music in my solitude.
Then it will be Christmas and maybe New Years will be one that might be a possibility for some fun.... could be..

if you come to cleveland, you can have thanksgiving dinner with a few misfits i call my family. the food is really good though.

I probably can't .........
But that is nice of you to offer!

Thanks!
;-}

I don't celebrate the holidays anymore cause for me they are too depressing.

Too many sad memories for me.

I understand completely. Even more so this year then what was in the past.