A poem I wrote ( Archived) (29)

Letting Go

How does one relinquish?
How does one surmount?
When all that I am sure of
is uncertainty and doubt.

When memories are too painful
We tend to block them out
Human nature runs from pain
it's defense is fear and doubt

Never asking any questions
Never letting feelings show
I wear mask of defenses
that hide my lonely soul

Act one has started as I step opon the stage
Wearing a mask of perfection
trying to hide the shame
Seeking approval, I hope you enjoyed the show
Self-sacrificing, paying a debt, that I never owed.

I tried so hard to please you
I wanted to make you proud
You didn't see me crying
because I didn't cry out loud.

So long I numbed my feelings
to keep you satisfied
I never could be perfect
but, oh, how hard I tried.

When my burdens are too many
and the pain denied takes hold
When I have tried to force solutions
and failed to gain control


Whne I have made the decision
to deal with, the reality of the past
confront the truth, confront the lies,
a void of emptiness.

Experience will teach us
that we can change and grow
What are the solutions?
We each must find our own.

Do we surrendor to Humanity
or in a Higer Power that knows
just what our needs are
and how we need to grow.

When I can turn my worries over
and live in the present time
I am learning that I deserve happiness
and a peaceful mind.

When I can see the truth of beauty
that always was within
I no longer need a mask
I am gaining confidence.

When I can see my will has deceived me
time and time again
I surrendor my arrogance
to forgiveness and acceptance

When I can stand still, and face my pain I know
the ground may still feel shaky but I am not alone.
When I can share my vulnerbilites, and let my feelings show
I am grateful for my lessons which teach me to let go.

Thank you, i really enjoyed your poem. Peace and serenity to you, lionheart

thanks for sharing your words.

Beautiful, I especially like the part about wearing a mask of perfection.

Thank you, I wrote it years ago but it reminds me that "Recovery is a journey, not a destination" and it helps me to see how far I have came
and know I will continue to grow.

Thank you, you inspired me to share it because I read the rock song you posted earlier and I thought someone has learned from their pain, there is a lot of reality in that song.

Who needs a therapist when one can read inspirational, heartfelt words like this?

Who needs a therapist when one can read inspirational, heartfelt words like this?

Oops - hate it when that happens