and it fades away
but they're feeding on my wallet and my wallet isn't big
and so it's not today
but the feeling once it comes and it doesn't go away.
i'm feeling like i'm helpless and my body is the plague
the feeling when it comes and it doesn't go away
i'm feeling like a chicken shit bullet in my brain

and next week to longer days,
where those feelings never come, and it doesn't go away,
and the cancers in my side and a tumor in my brain,
cuz the killing thats inside is bleeding like its rain,
and the message isn't mine and the message it won't change
i will never shine, i will only fade