At the young age of 21 . I have been tested by love . I have lost myself in a man who did not love me . A deceitful man full of lies and betrayal . I gave myself to this man . My heart,mind and spirit became his to do with as he pleased . I spent months starring myself in depression . At night i cried myself to sleep , only to wake up every few hours to repeat the torture i set upon myself . I became sick with love and convinced myself that life would end without him . As time went on i realized i had been living long before this man has entered , and was determined to last long past this ! I opened my heart to those who nutured it . Family and friends brought me back from this pain . . . . From a place i refuse to return . I have found the value in myself . In the sweet , dependable,fun loving person that i am . I have discovered love for myself and i refuse to go back to the days i spent without !