There are some things that I strive to attain.
I continue to seek, even though it causes pain.
I sometimes wonder if i can keep doing all of this.
Then, like clockwork, I'm rewarded with a first kiss.
The experiences I've had weren't what i dreamed of.
It's not always rewarding, this game we call love.
I forget the hard times, when they are going good.
Why i keep going though, I've never understood.
I continue the search, regardless of what I find.
And once I have it, the struggles will leave my mind.
So many others have what I wish i had.
If i could stand myself, it wouldn't be so bad.
I let people hurt me, for to me that's what I'm worth.
Can't remember when it started, I think at birth.
I won't find love, until I find it deep within.
I need to love myself, but where do I begin.
So many tell me it all starts inside of me.
There is a value to me, that I cannot see.
Everyone says that I can paint pictures with words.
Every line as graceful as the flight of birds.
It is my choice, whether to use this tool.
Finding somebody that will let me love them, that'd be cool.
I return to school, humbly, in the fall.
Once settled in, I'm guaranteed a booty call.
Happiness, as it happens, is a choice i can make.
I want to learn to smile more, even if it's fake.
It has an effect similiar to dominoes.
They see me smile and they do too, that's how it goes.
I hope to stay vigilant in this goal i have selected.
For when i am truely happy i'll see that reflected.