Inside the dance of night time stars
Decorating the skies in grease white chalk lines
Inside my mind, they wash out and wrinkle down the steps
A song of tragedy plays too sweetly
Yet, I could take the tune and take you into me
Like a submission for you fear so greatly
In the decorated lives of a soldier’s memory
It’s wartime in the city
And god if I could fit you somewhere inside of me
I’d know that I’d be happily in tune
If I could come too soon when you’re inside of me
To simply understand this holding on is holding on is holding on
Until my bleeding flesh grasps the fibers
Of tiny human faces in places I’ll never be
You see
A rope of choices around your neck
Is the rope of you around mine
In the extinguished flames of rage that pass
My jumper cables cut into you
To charge a single moment of feeling
That burns up in a flash
So rapid
Like the pieces of my puzzle
That hit the floor in slow motion light
You are left flickering before me
A pattern of a thousand eyes staring down
Freezing up the room in the disturbance
A pale concentration
Reminding me of the impurities of what I do
I wish I could touch you and not lose my form
A substantial glare of an image
A time we were so uselessly serine
I grasp so tightly in my hand
Willing you to pour yourself into me
With tears that write songs
Of murderous cells that dance in the crimson waves
Like sultry bedroom eyes in a quaint disguise
In hiding
I stare at this ring so long I begin to grow blind
Until I realize in time
It was a dream of dreaming of dreaming I was dreaming
And screaming out your name with impossibility tied upon me
I’m growing dry staring at my reflection
I reach in and shake my hand
I understand your plight, my friend
It’s the messages you send
Of keeping yourself behind defenses
In the colors of the motion
In the ocean
Crawling along the sandy floor searching for a tiny reminder
Kinder people wearing masks of security
Making humor to peel away the danger
And If I could take you into me
I think you’d understand
How much I need to close my eyes
To pretend
To disguise this fragile face of me
If I could take you into me