Made from love and I was born
A mistake that came from heaven
Hugs I needed and the love I craved
Were very rarely given
The acceptance that he gave
Was not really real
Then I would start to misbehave
To get attention that I craved
My soul cried out to be loved
By a man in love with his beer
The soul can never forget this pain
And so you must forgive me dear
My frustrations were forged back then
I thought deep to find the answer

One night I was a troubled teen
It seems today like an awful dream
I thought no one cared or listened
The droplets of beer on his beard glistened
He was awful to my mother
He was hurting my little brother
Mean to me as always, far too much aggression
A white teddy bear a rainbow around his neck;
I clung to it for comfort that night, his name was Ragamuffian

I took all the pills that I could find
And lay down on their bed hoping to die
Soon I became filled with fear,
Where would my soul go from here?
When he came into the room, so late
I murmured: “please don’t let me die”
He dragged me to the bathroom then
Tried forcing salt water down my throat
My hair was pulled I was thrown to the ground
He drunk drove me to the hospital
He ripped my teddies head off
Pulled me up the stairs…

I awoke in a hospital bed…
It was my birthday the next day! And I was full of tears…

I’m so sorry to disappoint you; I know this won’t make sense
Could hardly explain it all…But I hate teddies to this day,
I was craving the love of a beer drinking man
I could never bear to be shut out this way…
The gate: your evidence!