"SUFFERING" 11/28/2011
I AM IN THE SUFFERING...
THE PAIN IS DEEP, CLEAR AS CAN BE.
EMOTIONS ARE LOST IN TORMENT, THE LIGHT CAN NOT BE SEEN.
A LIVING HELL DESCENDS, THIS MUST BE MY FATE.
A BATTERED SOUL IN ANGUISH, MY PAIN IS STAINED WITH ALL I HATE...
A DEMON'S FANTASY... SHE CRAVES MY BLOOD...
LOST WITHIN DARKNESS... ALONE, WITH NO ONE...
I AM IN THE SUFFERING...
I AM IN THE SUFFERING...
MY LIFE IS FLOWING WITH A DEEP, DARK PAIN.
I CRY OUT FOR PEACE, BUT ONLY DESPAIR REMAINS.
MY SOUL IS SCREAMING FOR SOMETHING I CAN'T HAVE.
I DIE THE SAME EVERY NIGHT, MY SOUL IS TURNING BLACK..
A TWISTED REALITY... SHE CRAVES MY DEATH...
ALONE IN THE PAIN I DWELL... SADNESS HAS CREPT...
I AM IN THE SUFFERING...
I AM IN THE SUFFERING...
I AM F**KED UP IN MY BRAIN.
HAVE I GONE COMPLETELY INSANE?
SHE HAS STOLEN WHATS LEFT OF MY WILL.
IT'S MY HEART THATS BEATEN AND MAIMED...
I HAD NOW BECOME THE DEMON OF MY DARKNESS.
I'VE BEEN BAPTISED IN THE FLAMES OF BLACKNESS.
A WH*RE FROM THE VERY BOWELS OF HELL, FEEDING ON THE EVIL.
MY OLD LIFE WAS RIPPED APART, AND THE CHAOS IS UNVEILED...
BROKEN DREAMS CORRUPT MY MIND, TO LOVE AND LIGHT I AM BLIND.
STAINED BY THE AGONY OF THIS PAIN, I CRUMBLE AND FALL WITHIN THIS GAME.
BURIED IN THE PASSIONS OF HATE, IS HER DEVIL THAT CALLED ME TO MY GRAVE.
I DREAM OF PEACE I ONCE HAD, BUT SAD EMOTIONS TOOK IT'S PLACE...
SHATTERED WORLDS... REFLECTIONS OF DISGRACE..
THE SUFFERING BESTOWS WHAT IS DUE... THE SUFFERING WAS EMBRACED...
I AM IN THE SUFFERING...
I AM IN THE SUFFERING...
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Posted: Oct 2014
About this poem:
This song will be on my album i call. "THE HOST"
I was in a lot of pain when i wrote this one...
Me and my wife(ex) got together in 1998... we got married in 1999... she left me for a man 20yrs older than me in november of 2004... i got into things after that that landed me in a federal penitentury... i divorced her in 2008. it was final in november of 2008... in 2011 We got back together. and she ripped my heart out once again with another man. so i wrote this song for her. then decided to give her one last chance. infebrurary of 2012. an artery exploded in a lung and she died in my arms. this story is true and its the basis for the pain i felt inside... enjoy...
Comments (2)
sorry... have many in real life...
tell ya a little secret... treat them all nice polite and the same...
dont do this any more...