how true violet,
we cannot convince anyone, including ourselves,
to love or not love

i enjoyed reading. ty

thank you beautifulyou...

There are so many different Love feelings and everyone think that what they feel is real Love.....I tough for years,years and years,that the love I felt was the the real one,but after my 13 years relationship with an Indonesian Lady,I did not trust that Love feeling any more.....I went first in my mind trough all my relationships and Marriages and how I had felt and in fact how easily I had broken them up and moved to the next one.....I came to the solution,that I was first of all starting relationship with wrong women and second,that there was something wrong how I felt about Love,so I started to meditate about Love,day after day,week after week and month after month for over 3 years......I find the true Love feeling deep,deep in my self and stored for most of my life time.....in this over 3 years,I came very sensitive and when something touched my feelings,I start very easily to cry.....I came very selective and I had no feelings for making Love,with anybody that I don't feel Love for and the men that know me here in Antiga did not understand me att all and a Lady from Finland,with who I have a Son with,was really wondering to my Daughter,that what is going on with your father,when he has been alone for one year,because in her opinion I am a women's Man,to what my Daugther answered,that my Father has jus come wise.
Then after 3 years alone,I met a Lady and everything was like in hypnosis,I try to keep my mind clear and my feelings in my hands,but the hole experience was so different and much out of my hands.....I had refused to marry anybody for over 15 years,but now I married in 3 months....we are in the way of life very different and our living together broke up after 5 month....I try to go in reality and just cut out my feelings for her and sometimes I already felt like I had succeed,but then it is coming back again....and it is not only to me it is happen,she are perhaps even in a worst situation.....for me it was so easy before,but these feelings are something else and I don't know,what the end is going to be?

Rolf

Rolf i knw what you mean x

Marikia ....will never...thank you for the link..will check it out xoxo

Jay thank you.....but i hate love....

Steve thank you...love is cruel......