I awake with demons inside my head whispering of how I'd be better off dead. They stir feelings hidden for many years. Once again I am buried in an ocean of my own tears. Another sad holiday is what I dread. Life's too short is what they said. Not short enough for me. I look back only to find illness and misery.
Sweet sister miss her. She is whom I long to touch. To hear her laughter through out the day as her blonde curls the wind tosses while we play and sway.
My loving sister lives in a better place. Yet I never stop seeing her innocent baby face. If only I could have taken her place. Seems like the holidays get more lonely during the passing years. I pretend to be strong while holding back my tears.
Some days the pain is almost too much to take. Losing her must have been a mistake. Oh, I pray to one day stop the heartache.
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Posted: Dec 2015
About this poem:
Christmas can be hard alone. When I was 5yr. I held my sis as she took her last breathe. I could not save her. I tried.
Pink this is a very deep sentiment of sorrow and pain. I hope you will get over it. We all go somehow but we just don't know when. Of course, this doesn't make any of our sufferings easier, but time will heal so they say.
Take care.
Note: perhaps you can make the background a little lighter? It is so hard to read.
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Take care.
Note: perhaps you can make the background a little lighter? It is so hard to read.
Thank you.