I wrote a story in my mind to comprehend
what I would find,
I played it out so I could see, the final
outcome, what it might be,
But nothing turned out as I planned, now
contemplate a foreign land,
To leave it all soo far behind, to ease
the pain, and free my mind,
Let go it all and start anew, begin again
and see it through,
Would life be worse or better there, would
I survive, do I care,
Life without meaning, heart without feeling,
lost in the mist,,,,,,,,,,wish I was pissed!