i am a stranger now even to mine own self the anchor chains have rusted in the salt of my sea
neither brother nor sister nor friend can i muster whether the hand proffered or no for it is an alien world all that is within it and me incomprehensible
the sun shines not for me the bell tolls not for me i am a side track on an abandoned line where old boxcars are left to rust and the heat of summer simmers in myriad mirages so that what once was important is now an illusion
adrift, i am adrift without mooring without course without the glory of even a storm i wander within myself and no longer even bother to peer across the fence of the horizon nor to seek what I once craved to know
all assails so that i am bewildered and cannot find a path nor an end no high ground from flood from which I might find vantage and know the why of it or even you
sunrise brings fear and despair sunset is a dying each day oh whither come such things, such symbols and cymbals and gods and Gods what do we chase that is not made of dust that is not a flash in the pan or is that might make one wallow in happiness and understanding and feed upon the earth that nurtures the tree of love from which all fruit forbidden has fallen and rots upon the ground?