In the memories of my young brother
Dear Sister
Can I ask your time just to stand beside me for a while?
Can I ask your time just to feel my breath just before...?
Can I ask your time just to sing little song we sang when i was small?
Dear Sister
Am so sorry, that i caused trouble in your lfe and our family life
Am so sorry, that i make your head spinning when i stole your jewels
Am so sorry, that i made mom cry and dad angry
Dear Sister
i want you to know, that i actually want to get health, which impossible
I want you to know that i dont want to hurt you and our family, specially mom
I want you to know, that i do not want to be hated by all of my other sisters and brothers...
Its my mistake, its my crime
But please forgive what i had done to you and to the whole family
Please tell them, i need their apology before....
specially to you, who lost your lots of time and investment to get me better, its my crime.
Its my time coming, please hold my hand in this great big cozy hospital you bring me to alive...
But its too late, its my choice and its my crime to you
Dark angel came to me, cloud everywhere
Dear sister
Please knew, i love you most like i love mom, and its really pure my crime.
don't hate me, don't forgot about me, take me as your kid lesson. Tell to her that i make mistake and go to whereever God take me
Please don't you ever cry at this day ever again, please tell mom i want to see her smile as i need to go.
then i cry, even he ask me to smile. Please Go my lovely brother, you released your pain away now.
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Posted: Jul 2010
About this poem:
The memory of my brother who died 2004 of drug used, then i cry when i wrote this and smile as he ask me to put his funny foto hang to my bedroom wall till now.
Comments (4)
Thank for comment. why i write this, as my friend boyfriend died today also (but not of drug, death by head cancer today) and so i remember my bro too. He had lung cancer from drug used and heavy smoke.
Thank for comment. i still online as i love here to read all poem and let my sad time away.
Cheers
Dee
Not head cancer, but brain? cancer. And he also still young at ages of 45. Poor to her, my friend.