Jeezers Miss Kat, Hope you never try it again (suicide) just by reading your post & the way you have set it out, you seem to be a very intelligent & caring young woman. I really hope you choose a profession within this field as you have had hands on experience & being so young in age. (wish you had'nt, but what is done is done) I think there are numerous people that may need your help out there, now & in the future.
As i lost my best mate in 1996 to murder, i am still grieving till this day at 47 yrs of age & have never seeked help & thought that one day ill get over it? (WRONG). Like you said it only takes a small thing to trigger off your emotions (suicide). I reckon ive been pretty strong from then until now, especially when i hear s/thing as nice as this & from s/one so young.
When s/thing gets me down i live by :- there is always s/thing good around the corner.
RE: who to trust ????
sorry, my stakeits a distance thing, thats why your blocked sorry