My Da passed October 5, 1970...he had turned 63 four October 1. My Da taught me lots....some of it took 40 years to germinate.... My Son has three boys, my oldest daughter has one. I spent part of today with them....My Da is alive in so many ways in my Son and Grandsons......Marvellous Man, my Da!
I hope all of You experienced Love today, all the Fathers and all of their children....
Who do You think You Are????? Not what You do...or shoulda' coulda' woulda' DONE,,,if... Who ARE You??? What Values, beliefs would You stick to at any cost??? and what matters? What is important....have You separated the valuable from the valueless yet???
I try to remember that it is quite probable that my best course of action is to remember that my experience would indicate that I have seldom, (if ever) known what was "Best" for me, let alone posessing the knowledge and skill needed to manage anyone else's life. I spent half a century learning that I KNOW a minimal amount.....So...to be in NOW, do nothing, except not to interfere, let the energy of the cosmos move without attempting to "judge it" and try to be who I truly am...... I happen to believe that there is some Senior Management in place....and it is NOT ME.....
There are problems for which an answer does not exist within the level of conciousness wherein the problem is contained.... A "higher" level of conciousness is required or the "problem" continues to self perpetuate......we've kept some of them for several thousand years, repeating the solutions that aren't.....
When one starts threads that are stillborn, should one grieve? or feel a sense of shame? Clearly having been caught in an act of mental m**turbation I suspect a modicum of guilt may be appropriate.........
Fear...War...Disaster...What If's of Horror.. These are economic drivers in western civilization....... The same people that always profit are profiting......
No... Being lonely is an option that I choose not to exercise.... I control my mind.....I choose to hear voices...seldom bored, never lonely..... 'Lo tho I live in an intellectual wasteland, I do survive, for I talk to myself, a lot....
Married twice...18 years.....three kids..... finished raising them as a single dad.. 19 days.......... not ideal
And an 8 year live together....chemical problem....
Marriage is Great.......In the NOW!!!!!! fixing the past or fearing the future SUCKS......
Just waiting to be chosen by an accepting Lady.... I'm prolly as good as I'm gonna get...so training attempts will only waste her time.......and annoy me....
"The great thing about suicide is that it's not one of those things that you have to do now or you lose your chance. O mean, you can always do it later." harvey fierstein
Honesty is a many sided concept when it comes to online interaction. I've met several people in person to find their profile was of someone the "want" to be. They had know idea they were being dishonest. They kept telling lies about themselves for so long they started to beleve their own crap. God Bless 'em. I try to be aware of things from a self honesty aspect. Sometimes the lies we tell ouselves cause major damage.....
So! Wanna' make sure I have a handle on this.....the desirable guy just need to be sweaty and hung, with a tool belt.....? Doesn't need to be a "Stand Up" Guy?
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RE: old git looking for new lease off life
G'Day from Canada.....Have a Great Time on CS...'kay?