I don't just admire one person most. I admire different people and for different reasons, mostly because of their ability to overcome obstacles without tredding on other people.
The term spam actually "comes from a Monty Python television show in which one particular episode made so many references to the canned meat product that the rest of the show was overshadowed by the spam motif." It is considered to be a serious violation of netiquette and many ISPs are utilizing anti-spam tools and methods fight and pursue spammers.
RE: Leaving---- Soul Searching
write girl! write girl!forget the soul searching... it's inside you. Just write, write and then write some more