I finally get up the nerve to talk up a cute girl the local Burger King. Show her who I am and what not. I thought she was in to me. But she lied about living down the street. With good reason, she is a homeless druggy. Why me?
What makes me shy is the unknown factor. When I write a story, I know the characters I create, I know what one character needs to say in order so the other character reacts the way I want them too. But I can't do that with a real woman. I don't know how she'll react, and that unknown factor a lot of time freaks me out to no end.
To quote Debby Ryan, "I'm so afraid of saying the wrong thing... I just say nothing at all."
I'm fighting to change but that unknown factor scares me. I'm afraid of it, more than I'm afraid of anything else in this world... Afraid.
I'm going to be straight with you... I am very shy, sometimes a bit insecure. Somethings I say dumb, even goofy things in a hope to get you to laugh. That's what I love to do... I love to make people laugh. That's why I was put on this planet, to write and make people laugh. So, if you love to laugh then write me.
That's the mystery of it all... Isn't it... I like to be mysterious. Besides, didn't say special, I said I'm 1 in a 1,000,000. Special is for mentally challenged people.
I'm sorry I lost my temper. But I think this sounds better no matter what little Wadbag has to say. It's not desperate, I don't think she likes me and it's desperate no matter what I say on my profile.
Let me be clear... I edited my profile today, and I changed the part about myself. This is what reads on my profile. I can't be clearer... I'm not going to say this out loud. People who look at my dating profile here will see that.
I wrote this today... I'm hoping it sounds better and a good friend said that to me once... "I am a cancer survivor... I'm funny, smart, with an knack for telling jokes and creating characters. In short, I'm like nobody you've ever met before. I'm 1 in a 1,000,000."
In a way... I have lived in a bubble my whole life. My father was so over protective of me until the day of his death two years ago. He always told me that I need to work on my career before thinking of romance and that's exactly what I did.
I'm still have the shyness issue to deal with... That it is easier to talk to women with the written word over the spoken word. That has been that way since I was little. So, even though I'm working on it... I'm not ready to walk alone in the park to walk up to a woman to talk her up. Probably end maced in the face.
What is that line? How will I know it when I see it, how will I know when I cross it... I want to be confident but I don't want to sound like some conceded jerk... So what do I do?
The thing is mainly money. I am waiting for a big check but I have no idea when it's coming. Plus, I am incredibly shy, as I mentioned before. Being a writer, I can write things that I would normally be too shy to say. Not sure if any of you guys can relate. But that's how it is. I was hoping these sites would be a way to exercise me breaking out of my shell while I wait for the check. For I fear that shell will regrow if I sit doing nothing while I wait.
I tried posting in forums for California only to see what kind of replies I get, but I got none. You guys are great, but without someone in my area, I feel like this isn't doing much to help me. :(
What is that line? How will I know it when I see it, how will I know when I cross it... I want to be confident but I don't want to sound like some conceded jerk... So what do I do?
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The Unknown Factor
I still don't understand... What about my eyes? Is he calling me ugly? Because I've been told that my eyes are my best feature.