I had a ginger male cat, that was with me for 14 years, of which he needed Cortisone on a daily basis, after someone picked him up by his tale, he was first paralyzed, and the Cortisone, helped him function. He meant the world to me, we were inseparable. As a baby he would like a parrot sit on my shoulder wherever I went.
It broke my heart to loose him !
When my dad died, and 10 years later, almost to the day, my mom, I was incapable of anything for a very long time. Work was a form of escape.
If ugly - u cannot become attractive, except thru plastic surgery, and then there is the bone structure problem, which can also be fixed thru plastic surgery - I hope they're very rich then, to pay for all of it to look good for others squeamishness
Dependance
I have always been attracted to similar types. I have tried others but they all conform to the same pattern.