xjennxox Poetry (50)

As my eyes stare in the night
I had to take on the fight
The words you say
Are just a may
I can't keep this up no more
You are only number four


Look back at me
For that second time
This is not the key

Come back to the fellow
That isn't so mellow.
I won't take the battle
Of course I won't tattle

Just tell the girl with the pretty eyes
I'm not part of your ties.
She can have you
You look perfect, just you two
Not you and I
Just you and her
Just keep that lie
She won't see it

The tears that follow my eyes
They show the whole lie
But she thinks it's from you
Of course it is
Just a different part

Look at the pain
You have given me
I can't see anything
With the fear and chains

i wouldnt hurt you...
i wouldnt leave you..
i wouldnt hate you...
i wouldnt say goodbye..
i wouldnt let you die...
i wouldnt let anyone hurt you...
i wouldnt abandon you...
i wouldnt forget you...
i wouldnt let you fall..
i wouldnt judge you.
i wouldnt change my mind...
i wouldnt lie to you..

i would save you..
i would tell you i love you everyday..
i would let you cry on my shoulder..
i would always love you no matter what..
i would stay by your side even in the darkest of times.
i would never let go..
i would die for you..
i would tell you the truth..
i would hold you..
i would tell you its going to be ok
i would be there when you needed me...

but most of all..


i wouldnt do what you did to me </3

no more hurt
no more pain
no more heartbreak
no more disappointment in me
no more worries
no more words
no more apologies
no more tears
no more lies
no more deception
no more love
no more me...

look what you've done now
you said i was worthless
you said it was best for me to go
you said i wouldnt be missed
you said it was over
you hurt me
you lied to me
you gave false hope
you let me cry
you stood by and let me bleed
you knew what you were doing
you didnt care
you let it happen
you got what you wanted
you smiled at my pain
you broke me
you shattered my soul
you you werent there
you killed me
look what you've done now
you stood by and watched me make the cuts upon my arms
you watched me die
look what you've done sweety
im gone...
look what you've done now...

love
love is strong
love is weak
love makes you do thins you would never do
love is crazy
love can scare
love can hurt
love can kill
love is amazing
love is rare
love is fading
love dies
love is beautiful
love is magical
love lies
love is all around

love is wonderful

...a locked door
a rusty razor
a towel stained with red
a folded note on the floor
a broken mirror
a young girl lies dead

their emotions in a tangle
the room begins to swirl
she was mommy's perfect angle
and daddy's little girl...

i wish you could have seen the tears in my eyes
i wish you could have felt my heart breaking
i wish you would have cared
i wish you were there for me
i wish you would have tried
i wish you could see the hurt in my eyes

look what you'v done now sweetie does this make you happy?

i wish you would have found me
i wish you would have just let me bleed
i wish you would have saved me
oh hunny even you cant save me now its too late
sorry doesnt work anymore

i wish we could start over in a real world
i wish we could have been happy. but we werent
oh hun i wish we were

i wish you would have loved me
i wish we could have done this
i wish it was easier
i wish we didnt hurt
i wish u didnt hate me

oh sweetie i know you hate me but i dont hate you
i forgive you
i wish i wouldnt have fallen
i wish it wasnt to late.


i wish you could save me oh sweetie save me

i sit here and hurt everyday
a empty bottle of pills by my side
1 to take the pain away
10 to slip away
50 to stay away...

she had a broken heart
she had a shattered soul
she shut herself away
she did what she could
she tried so hard
she was a failure
she was nothing to him
she was dying
she was crying
she was crushed inside
she ran out of options
she cried as she did it
she wished there was another way
she wish someone would have noticed
she wished someone would have cared
she was alone...
now...shes dead...

if you could take my pain away would you?
if you could have saved me would you?
if you could have got there in time would you?
if you could bring me back would you?

if you could spend everyday with me would you?
if you could have took the gun from me would you?
if you could go back and time and take back what you said would you?
if you could cry for me would you?

i wouldnt cry foe me..i was nothing

we both have broken hearts
we both have shattered souls
we both have broken dreams

were lost in thid world
we know we dont belong
we wonder why we were born

we cry ourselves to sleep one last time
we both know what to do
we stand hand in hand on the bridge looking down

we look at eachother and smile as we take the jump
they cant hurt us now
were dead hand in hand at the bottom of the river.

sitting alone in a dark room
lost in my darkest thoughts and dreams
all hope is lost
they hurt you
they lied to you
you could never be loved they showed you that
your worthless they told you that
your nothing and you knew it
your so misunderstood by those around you
they all look down on you
they laughed while you cried
your just a freak thats all you hear...
your all alone you were always alone
so many sleepless nights ha what could you possibly have to dream about??..nothing thats right...
tears run down your face everyday
all the screams that went unheard
all the cries for help that were ignored by all the ones you thought loved you.
they didnt love you. why would they? you werent like them you were diffrent.
you were pushed too far you were always pused too far your scars showed that
this will be the last time you cry..
smile you know what happens next..
with no hope left in your heart
you put the cold razor to your wrist
the razor glides through your skin like paper
you watch the blood drip to the floor with a weak smile on your face
the pain is almost gone
the puddle of blood gets bigger and you get weaker
you close your eyes and slip away
all is well now
the pain is gone
you dont have to hurt anymore
its all over
they cant save you
they wont find you til the next day
it will be too late
you'll be in a world where everything is ok
a world where you dont have to hurt anymore
a wolrd where your loved
a world that lets you be you

no more tears your ok now..smile... after all your dead now...