cam916 Poetry (4)

Sleepless nights
Nocturnal minded, insomnia in
Domination
Slowly losing my mind seems to have some kind of relation
Paranoid in situations in which that emotion is no need
Bic n my left hand
My right a blunt rolled
of some bomb tree
For every step I take I hear controlled footsteps behind
I turn in hesitation but nothing in sight makes me feel blind
The breath raises hair on the back of my neck
This devistation feeling is something I hope to 4get
My blood pressure rising
My heart aches when it bangs
The ringing in my ear
as if a cell fne rang
"Is someone following me?"....
Wandering eyes catch mine and i sense a connection
Common beliefs seem to fall
upon this mirage of a reflection
Darkness seems to grow
Insanity provokes deep thought
Planners are known
For being thinkers
So what r those who
react on the spot
A voice hums in my ear
It drowns the anger my thots clear
I glance behind me once again the dark figure disappeared.
"Did I see something?"....
I assure myself its nothing to earn my concern
A whisper corrupts that decision and I flinch...
I stand still n disbelief
tho the shock hit like it hasn't happened before
another source has always followed me thru closed doors.
Realizing this hallucination can not be explained
Constantly fearing fear has left my bed made
Footsteps break the silence I ignite my fire that burns with sin
And with my last fight of desperation,
too my surprise nothing again
I stand motionless knowing I had not won the battle
The sun stared down hard which reveled the darkness of my shadow.
"My shadow?".....

Born into sin with only one way to go
Forced down a mystical path
In which my errors would show
Confused at what choice is right
My mind currently got no reception
Mo bars in more places
No synchronization to verizions wireless connection
Idle minded maybe
Lost once but not twice a baby
Kniffed mutiple times my vision tends to remain hazy
But I fall to my knees n beg god please
My hearts desire for mercy is the strength my hunger needs
All feelinz aside I once found me but lost my way
Suker punched and K.O. From my lonesome haze
Beat up busted ribs but I refuse to fall
Give up to one enemy and you give up to em all
My heart found piece but you took what was once love
I cry out to you daily n wonder why my life is fukd up
I found out who I was and you stripped me clean
Teenage girl bein raped picture the horrific scene.
Helpless is how I feel I wana fall and take a pill
But everytime I wake I feel my heart seeking mercy
Drenched in my own sweat I'm thirsty
My heart exploded, a gusher in ya mouth I'm bursting
So I sit back look up and cry
And by yo mercy hands you took what I thought was rightfully mine.

Sleepless nights
Nocturnal minded, insomnia in
Domination
Slowly losing my mind seems to have some kind of relation
Paranoid in situations in which that emotion is no need
Bic n my left hand
My right a blunt rolled
of some bomb tree
For every step I take I hear controlled footsteps behind
I turn in hesitation but nothing in sight makes me feel blind
The breath raises hair on the back of my neck
This devistation feeling is something I hope to 4get
My blood pressure rising
My heart aches when it bangs
The ringing in my ear
as if a cell fne rang
"Is someone following me?"....
Wandering eyes catch mine and i sense a connection
Common beliefs seem to fall
upon this mirage of a reflection
Darkness seems to grow
Insanity provokes deep thought
Planners are known
For being thinkers
So what r those who
react on the spot
A voice hums in my ear
It drowns the anger my thots clear
I glance behind me once again the dark figure disappeared.
"Did I see something?"....
I assure myself its nothing to earn my concern
A whisper corrupts that decision and I flinch...
I stand still n disbelief
tho the shock hit like it hasn't happened before
another source has always followed me thru closed doors.
Realizing this hallucination can not be explained
Constantly fearing fear has left my bed made
Footsteps break the silence I ignite my fire that burns with sin
And with my last fight of desperation,
too my surprise nothing again
I stand motionless knowing I had not won the battle
The sun stared down hard which reveled the darkness of my shadow.
"My shadow?".....

Accuse the right of being wrong
Time possess all that I try to embrace
Overcoming a natural fear is something I must face
Time is not a friend to me
Nor could I call it foe
unraveling from being self bound
I'm as close to myself as the condensation on my window
I stare into the eyes of my friends
N that reflection I c my true face
Lost my senses of common direction those who no wonder y my mind is in space
As my heart emotionally leaves my body
I become love within the ground
Dark as my humor may seem
How can you seek for something that has ben found?
Acknowledging and accepting the truth is a step closer to self closure
All of me that I've come to c I've written and kept in a folder
My emotions blaze with anger
My love tends to forgive
Confusion on how I shud feel is something I must rid
Yet n still I wonder how I pull myself together n keep my composure
Its a marvel how god has kept me strong till this hardship is over
Like I said before time possess all that I try to embrace
Maneuvering thru obstacles I felt alone but I'm one with god in my faith.