Hottblooded Poetry (24)

Through the storm of snow. Of a white out squall in the cold blistering north. Driving very slowly as the winds blow back n forth.
The only thoughts going through my mind.
Is to make it home to the warmth I had left behind.
Been many years since I drove through weather like this.
Its been many years since I felt the warmth of a loving kiss.
Being in what seemed to me a better place.
Yet the loneliness of being alone is colder than any northern space.
Still the things that go in and out of my mind.
That I cant give up on love even if the sun refuses to shine.
Thats what its like to start all over again.
Losing myself and the things that had came to a end.
So here I am still wanting that love in my life.
Its the intamacy I miss the most, along with the restlessness of not having her waiting for me.With open arms and not thinking twice.
Yes there are things far worse then the freezing cold of the weather.
Not having someone to be with or the happiness of being together.
I ca'nt give up now. Not after all the bouts of grief.
Somewhere over the horizon. I still believe she will find me.

As we think fondly of one another everyday and every night.
For months this goes on. Like beautiful words in a song.
Things like this are so very rare.
Both of us feeling the connection we shared.
Times being what they are , We had to settle I guess.
She being so far away.The distance between us would be a great test.
The feelings we share between us from the great void between her and I. Yet love knows no bounds , somtimes can make us cry.
Yet She and I have never met face to face.
The feeling we have are like a state of grace.
Time goes on as it seems . The thoughts of one another in our thoughts and in our dreams.
Till the momeant when destiny is on our side once again.
We will alway dream of us being lovers .
Yet right now we are very close friends.

Here it is, another holiday season.
With many people that are needing help because of so many reasons.
Best thing I can do is to let you know.
You are not forgotten and this friend is here,To tell you so.
The first thing to bring in the holiday cheer.
Is to help someone in someway to start off the New Year.
Make a phone call to someone in need.
Maybe listen to whats going on to get them out of their greif.
To let them know that you care.
Be honest with them to help them out anytime and anywhere.
You might be surprised on what good you can bring.
Doing somthing for someone can in effect help them be abit happier and maybe help them sing.
I know its not easy in this time and in this age.
Yet helping someone along can help turn a page.
Thats my gift , from me to you.
Have a better holiday this year and please help those that need it too.

When the world gets you down and seems so not nice.
Maybe this might make you smile, along with some advice.
Its ok to get angry.Its ok to be sad.
Just realise this. You have something they will never have.
The great charm of yourself will be still intact.
Along will the knowledge of knowing,your better off and thats a
fact. Lets not forget you have great style and your awsome too.
Just remember that when things seem to get you sad and blue.
With all of these qualities you possess.
Your a better person from all these things. The most important
is to keep and hold on to your greatest happiness.
This poem is from me to you.I hope you think of somthing good.
To make it back to the new you.

While it's raining at night I dream of you. Wishing that you were'nt a dream in my head but that you were real
and true. Kind of clear. What I seen in my dreams. Talking and
laughing,like we have known each before it seems.
If this is a premanition of some kind. May you enter my life and not just my mind. Though I still see your lovely blond hair.
Blowing in the wind as if I am right there.
Listening to a conversation from some where I never been.
I guess I wish alot because If your real. I want to be more than friends. Its not the first time I seen things become real and they
started out as a dream. Like when things started happening and the lights went on. It was kinda the same thing. Might sounds crazy and it mights sound nutts. Yet the dreams I have had, Show me never giving up. With any good fortune and with alot of wasted days.
May you become real in my life and not vanish in dreams haze.

Looking for the things that would make me happy it seems.
Looking is the hardest part through all of the greatest of dreams.
Weather its looking for somthing better in my life.
More money, less problems, and of course looking for a great wife.
My,how much the looking can make you wish for things that you want.
I know the things I'm looking for and I know about the things I dont.
One day older and many dreams I have. To one day I pray for the
things that won't make me sad.
Yet through the wondering and dreaming of all this and more.
I still havent found the many happinesses I been looking for.
Not time to give up. After all this way. For tomorrow is the future.
Not today. So with that being said and my dreams yet to fulfill.
No giving up on any of it. And I never will.

Getting tired of the same old run around.
People who lift you up to knock you down.
It's pretty screwed up come to think of it.
One second they say great job,the next they're feeding you full of shit.
This must be how a mushroom feels.
Being left in the dark and getting told empty promises along with the
so called deals.
Is it just me? Or has the world done gone nutts?
Either way it still hurt like hell and makes me never want to trust.
I think it's kinda a sad to write this down.
Yet it has to be said cause there is no need for me to keep this
crappy frown.
May all the decievers rott in their lies.
Till there is no more left of them and long gone the flys.

Don't give up on your dreams in your life.
Even though it hurts like hell and things don't feel right.
Cant you see? Where you are.
Its kinda amazing. You made it this far.
Somtimes in this life we lose our way.
Only to find ourselves into a brand new day.
Might seem like an eternity to get past the things that have gone wrong.
Just remember the worst of it is behind you and you can move on.
Hope some of what I'm writing can help a person be strong.
So here it is and I'm not done.
May you know that your special and may you know somone cares.
I know how it feels cause heck, I been their.
If what I have written helps you in some way.
May some of these words see you to your best times one day.

Looking up at the stars above.
Thinking about you,where ever you are my love.
Somtimes time stands still it seems.
Dreaming of us again,Living out our long awaited dreams.
Me staying in this old house keeping the place warm.
You on your way back to me with open loving arms.
Going over the events and things that kept us so far apart.
Never giving up on us as we stayed in each other's hearts.
Now we are back together and here we will always be.
Being with one another from now till the end of history.
Some might think us crazy.Yet I could hardly care.
When it comes to you and I. We will go hand and hand.
anywhere and every where.
So when the day comes and one of us has passed and gone.
Just remember I love you forever and that you can count on.

When that day happened and we held each other in that warm embrace.
The feeling we felt between us,put a glow on my face.
Never knowing that all my dreams would come true.
Yet they did when I met you.
Kinda strange about what we have and what we had lost.
I wouldnt change a single thing even at that expensive cost.
Took me to lose you to find her in this life it seems.
With her and without you , I can live out them awsome dreams.
Yes its very weird on the giving and the giving back.
Almost like the devorce and the marraige was worth all the things we lack.
Still waking up one eye at a time.
Took me to lose you to find her.
Realy boggles my mind.

So things seem to be out of place.
From where you were to where you are.
Such a strange life in such a strange place.
Maybe this was meant to be.
Yet it dont seem familiar to me.
Oh theres the reason why. I wasnt outta place just commen down from
an all natural high. Seems like this was a dream. Yet still dont feel like me.So there it is the me I never knew. Maybe this could help somone too.

In the few times in my life.
Every once in a while things can turn out right.
From getting my bills caught up.
To that rare chance to fall in love.
Never knowing what tomorrow has in store.
Yet I still search for thoughs moments all the more.
Maybe I'm crazy or a little off the wall.
Yet I'm on this site after getting up from a very long fall.
See it's things like this that make me believe.
I cant give up now. there must be somone out there for me.
With any good fortune things will make themselves shown.
Its better to share my life than live alone.