darren57 Poetry (5)

its been 3 years now, and your passing still weighs on me, not only did you mean alot to me, your were the only of for me, im down on my knees praying for one last chance, to see your face again, to kiss your lips again, people say its easy to let someone go, not when you didnt have the choice to let them go, that day haunts me in my dreams, its just like a nightmare, my friends tell me to get over it but i dont care, you were my girl, the one for me, i miss you dearly, but i know one day you will be coming back down to me.

I look at myself, i see nothing but a disappointment but, all my friends, see me as the most amazing person, im just waiting for that moment, that moment when you will see me for me, the moment you give me the chance ive been waiting for, ive waited, ive been hurt, these wounds wont be healed until i have you, just me a chance, you the bandage to stop thing bleeding your the grl of my dreams, that ive been needing.

do you see me? like me for who i am? no you dont, you dont know me, you think you do but you ruined your chance, now i look back with a last glance to see if you are still there, but your not, your gone forever, you dont care you never did. im a nobody, you dont see what i am, im nothing but what i am. you feel that feeling of nothingness? no you dont cuz your mind is set on someone else, im nothing to you i never was.

I do not know how to express the conflicting emotions that have surged like a storm through my heart all night long. I only know that first and foremost in all my thoughts has been you. - without effort, unconsciously, your are on my mind.

You have the greatest soul, the noblest nature, the sweetest, most loving heart I have ever known, and my love, my reverence, my admiration for you, youve got my heart in the palm of your hand..

You are more wonderful and lovely in my eyes than you ever were before; you are my pride and joy and the way you love with such a perfect love is beyond all expression, i just wish that love was mine

when i was with you i was happy,glad,and joyful
i was always glad to be with you, but now its
different, your with him, he took my spot,
similar to an empty parking spot, he will get what
he wants and leaves, but you see nothing wrong
with him, i see all his flaws.

now i sit in a cold room waiting for a moment
to see you again, ill never have, so i sit
in sorrow, hoping one day, you will be in my arms
again, safe and out of harms way, but you dont
want that, you want him.

im lost in this world, lost in this place,
i dont even feel like im a part of the human
race, but i wait for my moment to strike
so i can go home to you tonight.