shadowofthesoul Poetry (4)

As I remember the days and years of past,
wishing that these sweet memories would for eternity last..!
Remembering your bright smile,
And our want for the marriage aisle!
remembering your touch..
thinking of you and us too much!
remembering that fateful day,
when god brought you my way!
Remembering our first doubt,
of how to go about!
Remembering the difficult time's,
a story far from nursery ryms!
unseen forces pushing us apart,
Doing my best to mend a broken heart!
Remembering our first child,
Cheerful,bright and wild!
Torn apart shortly after,
Remembering your sweet laughter!
Two years of darkness,
Followed by another miracle!
Demons forcing my weakness,
Non believer becoming spiritual!
The fight far from done,
but i know it wil be won!
my love is unwavering,
a passion worth savouring!
her smile lights my day,
Pushing negativtity out of my way!
trying to stay strong,
You wont wait long!
Remembering all of this,
To bring me.....to bliss.
Remembering them as they smile,
Memories that take me away for awhile!
her love true and pure,
she is my only cure!
I will forever love!
You amanda, my dove!

remember all the things that transpired,
finding it difficult to have the animosity retired.
all the rage and hurt that's kept you awake,
with forgiveness being the hardest thing to fake.
you try to reset the past,
hoping the tension wont last.
yet the pain is hard to ignore!
while for more trust they implore!
as you continue to give...
making it harder to live.
you try as hard as you can,
yet they just bring you down again.
how is it your supposed to release,
this pain before your heart begins to cease.
you try and try to block it out.
leaving a little voice inside left to pout,
you go on about your way.
your trust they continue to slay.
now things start to be clear,
as you realize you cant live in fear.
if you choose not to forgive,
you become paralyzed unable to live.
forget about the things they've done!
NO!instead their actions you shun,
with a new outlook you have begun

My soul cries,
Cries to thee,
My soul cries,
Cries to be set free.
My chest is pressed,
My soul tries to escape
I try to let go,
To let myself be free
But there is a fear,
Which caused my hearts tear,
Free me, free me!
My soul whispers to thee.
I thrust out my heart,
To have it thrown back, torn apart.
See me, see me!
My soul whispers to thee,
Please help me,
Please answer me,
Love is what I ask of thee,
My soul cries, it cries to thee!

For mankind's doom was self-imposed
by the growing of their rigid wisdom.
A wisdom that through thousands of years
has brought torment to their minds...
The human race will flee to be
segregated and live as individuals
without baring to command nor follow
that which is commanded.
Life shows no hesitation to become
insensitive in time if it's own demand.
Their wisdom and knowledge beheld
such a rigidness they themselves
knew not of their impending doom,
nor of the surreal realm in which they
Reside