Cuddlebug9 Poetry (6)

Spiritual love from God has shown me a sign.
I can breathe.
My heart is home.
My eyes are bright.
The storm has passed.
Internal conflict is resolved.
If i could thank anyone it would be love.
i smile.
i laugh.
i cry.
i believe.
i have faith.
my guardian angel hath spoken.
the freedom of my heart has been awoken.
i am
ME!!!

My eyes show who i am.
How i feel.
My innocence.
My hurt.
My pain.
After every tear that falls from my beautiful face i know i am healing
inside.
All i want is to be happy and safe.
At night i can't ever seem to sleep because of all of my regrets.
I am on my knees asking God to have that moment in time where two worlds collide and love becomes forever.
If my eyes could speak they would say all of the things that a woman has ever wanted to hear.
And they would start with the words "you are the very reason ii breathe and i will always love you and i need you every single moment so i can share my world and my heart with you and you are my life!!"
And that is what my eyes show.
That is the reason i am who i am and that is the way i feel inside.
This is me!

I stare into the eyes of a woman and i feel okay.
I sit and ponder for hours just thinking of everything i feel inside
that i want to share.
I realize that my heart is still beating but it honestly feels like i am floating in the clouds of love.
I start to feel tears begin to fall from my deep green eyes
as i see that my openness has become a complete must.
If i could talk like i feel so deep in my heart filled with love and sweet affection maybe she would understand that i am the one.
It hurts still to know that she is my honest real true love because
i just can never find the words to say.
I get on my knees and begin to pray and ask The Good Lord to give me
the ability to say those magic three words that everyone knows.
And suddenly it comes out and i kind of shout it "I love you!"
And all she can do is just look at me and smile.
In the back of my mind i keep asking myself does she even feel the same way.
And then i wake up and i realize it was all a dream and i have always wanted to experience the beautiful moment where we share a sensuous kiss and we walk off into the sunset but i know it will take everything i have to finally say it...
But in this moment here with myself the only place i wanna be is there with her.
Is she a metaphor for an emotion i am searching for inside of myself
i have no clue but this is my openness revealing my desperate cries
to finally be safe and warm with that special lady that i will love forever and the final question is..
Will i ever find her?

To let it out and let it go i will pray for strength.
My hopes are depleted.
My fears are defeated.
My eyes are blinded but clear.
Inside i feel open to emotional freedom.
If you can say i need love i do!
All my tears are gone.
But still no response.
Silence is what hurts the most.
If my heart could speak it would say everything others would
not understand.
I do not speak in riddles.
I never disrespect.
And all i see is heart break and sadness.
So this is to everyone who needs someone to say it like it is...
Give the guy a chance who always pours his heart out to everyone
because he is the one who will love you the most.
He can be the one to snuggle with you and keep you safe and warm
on cold winter nights. The one to give you a sweet sensuous kiss
that will bring you to tears instantly. He wants to save your life and give you everything you have ever wanted and needed. He wants to spoil you like you are his world!
He is the one that is trying to reach out and say "hey i am here"
So next time you think you are all alone out there and you have absolutely nothing left remember someone does understand and you are
never alone.
And that person is me!!
So take my hand and walk with me and see love, hope, and reality for what it is.
I can show you everything you have ever wanted to see!
Love is waiting for you and you have to reach out and know that it is time to let it out and be the you that God made for the world to see!
So go and get 'em and let them see we are not that bad we are just misunderstood!We need love too!

Deep inside of me i wait to open and blossom.
These eyes have seen hurt.
This heart has felt sadness.
As i listen to the sound of the morning rain tapping gently
on my window i smile because i know love is with me.
The tears begin to fall as i see my life begin to change.
Suddenly i realize that my heart is healing and is waking up.
For i know after all this time my prayers have been answered.
I am home!

Singing. Dancing. Hoping. Praying.
My heart is aflutter as i sit with these emotions of love.
I can't stop smiling.
I am hopeful.
I am happy.
Listening to my favorite songs and singing every word.
I opened up and gave it a chance.
Now i know that God is there.
Because i am about to be in your arms.
In your heart.
And i will be laughing with you!