Knhaylah Poetry (7)

I Bring to you my wounded soul
My heart can mend its own
For my soul is not my claim
Its yours, I learnt this as i grow
So tell me Lord, if you love my soul
Why is it in despair?
I know I'm not the only one
So to seek answers for me alone will be unfair
Oh Almighty God, God of Moses, Elijah and David
Where are you when i call,?
When I shout and scream to the top of my voice
'OH MY GOD, rescue my injured soul"
You can make the choice
But for me, there is no sleep and the desire to eat is gone
Should I count you the same as my appetite my God
"Gone"
But if you exist,why torture me, and leave me here in this cruel earth alone
And imagine the words on man comfort the broken by what the call your own word
'Your ways are higher than our ways, your thoughts are higher than our thoughts, no one can understand your council My God'
So is your promise true? If your words are life so then answer!
'why have you abandoned those that need you so much'

Praise be to you Almighty God
You knew me from the womb
You know my every moment in life
And you will guide me to my tomb

It couldn't have been easy for Jesus
To be rejected by this world
I feel his pain and suffering
But I know its not the whole

I know what it is to be whipped daily
And still have to pick up that cross
Only some of your humiliation I feel
While I bear my cross to Calvary

And while you prayed to our Father
Asking for mercy and pass this cup
You understood your purpose
So now you nor I can't stop

Let's give him all the praise
Because his plan is perfectly sound
For dust we are and shall we be
We return right into the ground

His name I lift on High
For we are not one bit worthy of his love
But still he gave us Grace
So sad it had to be paid with Jesus's blood

Would we do it all ove again?
Runaway, just leave him and go?
And when we're accused of being his sheep
Will we deny 'him we don't know'?

There is no limit to what mankind will do to survive
Still Jesus accepted and continued knowing he would die
Was there a lesson? A message?
Of what God expected of mankind?
Where is the incorruptible truth of God's design that no one can find

Close my eyes my Jesus
Take me under your wings
I know I'm not as perfect as you desire
But i would love to hear the angels sing
My heart is getting weaker and weaker
And I'm just waiting for it to be all over
Will I see your eyes Dear Heavenly King
Or is your glory to bright for me to look in
Then let my eyes be blinded by your glory
For there is nothing on earth here for me
While the pitter and patter after the spoils of life
While they fight over dirt and live in strife
Didn't they hear you when you say
Your going to prepare a place for them for that special day
Why do we hear but not listed
Why have eyes and cannot see
Everything on this earth will be as dust
Yet we struggle and envy and be jealous and filled with lust
REMOVE ME! Oh God, I beg thee so
For this earth has made my spirit low
But everyday you open my eyes, I say thank you with tears in my eyes
But who can fool the Almighty one, you know my words are a lie
No more dream, no more sleep, no more desire to eat
Just a desperate desire my Jesus to lay at your feet

When death calls upon me, I shall not fear
For I already know this evil world, maybe there's something better there
One thing my soul cannot reconcile, is why people hang on to what they call 'dear life'
And still proclaim that nothing but heaven will suffice
Are they confused or are they afraid to chose?
What is there to miss on this evil land
When all the truth we should know has been corrupted by man
Lord Cause me not to fault, for this hurt and anger persists
If God says we have choice, why weren't we given the choice to exist?
Is this God's word or the fables of man?
Because when Jesus spoke he clearly said, 'because of the hardness of man's heart , Moses was forced to write laws that was not God's plan from the start'
And with this feeling everyday
If choice is mine Lord, from this earth take me away
If choice is mine, then close my eyes at night
And Dear God, never let me see another daylight
It choice is mine, why should I suffer to go to heaven
It choice was mine, it should have been mine from the beginning
Another man's choice should not be my burden, my pain, my brokenness
The God I love and serve will not give man so much power to cause so much unhappiness
Where is my God that is pure, honest, true and fair
And who are you wearing this mask, imitating my God pretending he is there?
Give me back my true Jesus beloved
For only he can save my soul and take me above

When I get down on my knees Dear Lord
I feel like I become a child
Because just thinking of how much I need you
I always start to cry
Oh how I wish I had a pray warrior's strength
Doing battle for souls in your name
But before I can even say 'bless me Father'
My heart and soul grows weak
I try to comfort myself into believing
That I cry because I am overwhelmed by the love you have for me
But who can fool you Heavenly Father?
You know I cry, because I need you desperately
You know I cry, cause I don't think you hear my prayers
You know I cry, because I'm afraid your not there
You know I cry, because all of me is broken and need repair
Only you, can do such a miraculous thing
Only you, can just speak the word and it shall be done
Only you, can give a gentle touch and take it all away
Give me understanding Lord
I serve you in joy and in pain
Still I can't understand why the burden remains
Be it so Lord, Let your name be forever lifted and glorified
Let your power be manifested before our eyes
And let your compassion grant us all sinners your grace
You are God

The pictures are gorgeous, the make up does well
But it is all a beautiful mask, to hide the hell
My eyes look dry, as the camera rolls
But my hear is broken, with a troubled soul
My knees are bruised, crying out to the heavens
My forehead is bowed low, earlier than seven
Begging and pleading, set my broken heart free
Dismayed and desperate, still no one hears me
Think positive they say, the feeling will go away
But it don't matter how I think, I does not change the day
Because nothing is new under the sun
Praying, praising and pleading and getting the same result is no fun
So am I weak to be in despair when I come to you?
Is this why my prays are not heard by you?
And with ever disappointment I encourage others to trust you for it is wise
But I have been trusting you and no one sees the tears in my eyes.

I know my heart would break
But I had to let it be so
Cause if I didn't let you go
I know my tears forever will flow
And with fear of the pain that is to come
I strengthened myself for that hurtful blow
It was hard, so hard to let you go
But I wore a smile, so no one will know
And all the vanities of life couldn't dress the pain
The most beautiful gowns I wore in vain
The truth, no matter how long, could never hide
Cause when I said goodbye to you, a part of me had died
A broken mind, a broken heart, a broken soul
To ease the pain, I wanted to turn back to you.........
A heart that was so cold
I stopped and think and began to comprehend
That with or without you this pain has no end
So dream me a dream for a very long time
Not in this world or the next, you can never be.............
My Valentine