docwhoami Poetry (6)

I am just a nut
Who lives in a hut
It don't worry me
when my wrist is cut

I don't have a need
to watch my heart bleed
I don't pay to heed
to follow any creed

So if you find me
all curled in a heap
just let me go
and watch as I sleep

I want to leave this world
So watch my sails unfurl
I'll sail away in search of a girl

She don't even exist
She's not even real
Yet, long ago we made
a past deal

My fate is already sealed
in spite I'm not healed

I don't even care what people
would think
they have their opinions
and most of them stink

My mind is made up
I will drink my final cup
If I should die before I wake
I care not my soul to take

Betrayest thou with a kiss?
You offering me subtle approval
with a hiss?
Ah the cold winter snow dancing upon
your face I hear your breath panting
in a passionate pace

You came to me for no apparent reason
in the summer season
yet, you seemed preoccupied
with drama you chose to hide.

I saw a fair maiden rather tattered and torn
She had a lovely form but a bit forlorn
and for a moment we bonded with a similar hardship
and regret and its now quite hard to forget

Suddenly without a cause you shut me out
and locked your door and denied me a chance
to offer love you could have endured

You told me briefly of your story of being nothing
but a crack whore but I saw something that you could
have been better and more.

Yet, apparently you saw there was no real hope for a lost woman
on dope. So, you chose to shut out the love that could have helped
you to cope

Yes, you are free to choose to believe what you think is right
yet, do consider your current plight.
Nobody can offer healing to those who have no feeling.

Nevertheless a lesson learned for now I know how someone
else who offered me a better way to see and in my arrogance
I pushed her away as you did to me.

Always consider the greatest regret is when love comes our way
don't shut it out because it may not ever come back another day

In the end one has to consider who betrayed who
How often do we hurt ourselves with denial of love
when a quick fix with a vial fits so much better like a glove?

At least with a fix you know what to expect
with people nobody is perfect and you don't know
what you're going to get !!

It can't be so bad
For you can't lose
what you never had

It can't be so bad
but why are we so sad?

The question may be asked
Is the cup half empty or half full?
when we all often feel like a fool

If it makes us happy then why the Hell
are we so sad
We paint on our smiles to hide the miles
the scars don't hurt as much after awhile

Yes they make us who we are as we place our dreams
upon a distant star
It doesn't matter how rich or poor we are
we are meeting our destiny from afar

We'll take our lessons of life and in spite of
the strife we can say we had a helluva ride
as some will stand in shame and others with pride

In the long run we will learn we carved our own fate
as we will wonder if we have time to change or will it
be too late?

So don't be sad for its not that bad
Things could be worse we are all stuck
with a dreaded curse

We will eventually get sick and die
and we will weep and cry
Not so much that we are leaving
but wonder what we will be receiving
A crown of glory or just be a forgotten story?

Who do you think you are?
while counting your emotional scars
To where you place your wishes
upon a distant star?

What do you think of me
when you discern my intentions
while assuming nothing but contention?

As we all seek that loving connection
in hope to bring us closer to understanding
the god we dance to in offering protection
how often do see our own reflection?

Its quite sad indeed how we cry of our
wants and needs
while we sit and wonder if anyone pays
any heed?

How we spend a lifetime in search of self
often claiming we know more than any book
on a shelf
Yet, isn't a amusing how the questions of life
change just when we think we have an answer
though the song remains the same we just keep
seeking different dancers.

Who do you think you are suffering needlessly
thinking the grass is any greener
running from the truth so far?

Perhaps we shall find that everyone shares
that common need to be loved and understood
It matters not how young or old
or pretty or cold
We just have to stop hurting ourselves and each other
and reach out to our sisters and brothers

Selective love will never bring peace of mind
it just reinforces special relationships we seek in kind
Heaven and Earth merely is and dances happily with time

Maybe if we learn to observe how the universe sees us
life and love can be embraced without all the fuss!
If we look within to see the purity of truth for it seeks not
to debate its proof
we may learn behind the veil of illusion and confusion
the light we seek is pure and true and it says I Love You

Oh to dance with a poor waif
rather than worry to have enough gold
to make a woman rich in her safe

Oh to understand that love is not measured
by a pound of gold
But, who will be there for you when
you are sick and old

Disgrace not the heart that loves
without discrimination
Just embrace the one who
will look upon you without
Damnation

Love comes in many dimensions
and often with noble intentions
Yet often met with bitter contention

The greater regret is to assume or judge
the quality of love offered when you may be
sitting with none in your coffer

Tis' easier to place blocks and walls
against love and passion
based upon past experiences
that shape our perceptions

Yet, we can ask ourselves
how is it working in our pursuit
of a loving connection

Oh how we place vain expectations
in the search for love
Yet, it is rather amusing when it
stands in front of us waiting to fit and embrace us
like a glove.

As we sit in denial
waiting and hoping for that physical
attraction thinking who or what we see
will make us think we found a trophy
We find its mostly a distraction

The fantasy in love is often full of disillusion
and measured by our own confusion
Real love knows the truth and offers
healing with noble feeling

Its seeks nothing to gain nor offers unneeded pain
If its hurts we must be doing it wrong
hence we may need to offer a better song

If we offer love upon terms or conditions
Imagine the god we dance to in whom we seek
forgiveness and compassion did the same
in his or her fashion

No greater pain or regret we can ever suffer
than the chance or choice we had to offer love and healing
but chose to shut out or do nothing to reconcile the gnawing
feelings

Though we can justify anything and everything thinking with our ego
we did right but, is it worth the fight?
Counting the sleepless nights wondering if we should have held our
lovers a bit more tight or let them go to follow their own flow?

In the end when we stand before our maker and gnash our teeth
to the things we did and the things we didn't
We will carry everything good and bad and wear it like a snug mitten

Forget not those who held your hand that helped you and led you through
the darkness in the quality they can
They were your angels to set you on your way to help you believe in better
days.

Walk in the light of the spirit of love and forgiveness seek within for
your happiness for no fools of vice will ever suffice
while you are looking for love for a price

I'm a troll, she's a troll
He's a troll, CS patrol
Let's just pay the toll
are we on a poetic roll?

Laugh a lot play a lot
The ladies searching for Sir Lancelot
Dance a lot and kiss a lot
Just don't drink a lot!!

Care a little disregard the tittle
Life and love remains a riddle

He's a jerk but, she can squirt
Always remain ready and alert
Be on guard to avoid any hurt

Write a poem write a blog
yet we still remain in a fog
No right or wrong answer
Just the music changes
with each dancer.

How we dance to the rhythm of romance
It puts a tingle in our pants
Oh to find love per chance

Take time to find the humor in life
instead of creating so much strife!

We are nothing but overgrown children
full of pain regret and doubt
its enough to make everyone pout

Have joy and a song in your heart
Embrace those who you never want to part
Love all beauty for it is our duty
to show compassion in our fashion.

Be true to yourselves and place what is holy
upon your shelves within your heart
Let not the dust hide the love you impart

Happiness comes from within if you haven't found it
let go of the bitterness and hate that hides in the shadows
that keeps the light of love from shining in!!

How I wish to love and embrace all the human race
A gentle hug a kiss on the face to let everyone know
You are not forgotten or have been erased.

Every soul who has ever passed upon the face of the Earth
offers a story and a song that is worthy to be placed upon
the hearth

The sands of time blows with the winds
offering its message sublime
Ten thousand years from now all that we are
all that we can be, will be written in eternity
because there is no time

It is said Heaven and Earth shall pass away
but my words shall be for all eternity
Let the light of love show in everything we do
for it shall be returned tenfold back to you

I may be a fool and a useless tool
I may have a hard time living the golden rule
Yet, who among us is without sin
assuming we keep believing in the darkness
of our ways
We may not improve if we keep throwing each other in
the recycle bin
However, there is hope for brighter days in between the haze.

Live and love the best you can
Hold on what is true
Forsake no one who says I love you
even though you may not think its true

The one you push away or discard
that may not ring well with you
may be the love that will save you.