3point Poetry (5)

With every passing second i miss you more
This emptiness inside aches thru every pore
Where are you now, where have you gone
Have i lost us, lost our bond
Like tiny needles they pierce my heart
Who would've known you'd tear me apart
Powerless i am my nightmares are shown
Show me the man i am, a clumsy clown
Why did i let you go, this is my only sin
God please show me why, why this is happenin
Struggles with my insomnia tear me down
It brings only a bitter tear consumed by a frown
My dreams of you and me no longer mold a smile
How long will this last, forever? or for a while
One of many questions still pounding my mind
What did i do, or didn't do? to be treated so unkind
I think of us more now, then when you were mine
If this is not love i am surely blind
A painful reality ensued when you closed the door
With every passing second i miss you more

I've grown tired of the vicious cycles
...
of the do's and dont's
the wrong's and right's
I've lost the will to fight
to stand against bliss with ignorance by myside
to stand upon my own pride with nothing inside
moving forward to crawl to walk to take flight
the fact i should or shouldn't
the woulds and coulds I didn't
Thoughts that waver I've begun to lose count
count of the endless mind numbing questions
where they began, ongoing and end
whether or not to relieve myself
from jumping out this plane, building or cliff
questioning wheres that next spliff?
screeching the voices are that echo
vibrate and torture the halls of my mind
close my eyes to mysteries yet to find
has me searching in disarray
curious as to why you decided to stay
thoughts of anger and disbelief
to drown the misery in make believe
to glance inwards instead of out
the reality of my perception is what it's all about
to stop lashing at others and find myself
that these feelings wont bend nor fix themselves
the dead the alive, the faithful the lies
the suttle differences between you and i
lets find a threshold of common ground
where the clouds no longer blanket the skies
where you and I can be alive
...
I've grown tired of the vicious cycles

We are blind fools...
Seeking a pathway thru the mystic mist

We perceive something that just isn't there,
Finding refuge within eachothers love,
Showing no sign of weakness, nor despair

We are mere dogs ravaging against impossible fates,
barking against those who dare creep,
creep near our desperate dreams, near our gates

Still we venture to catch a glimpse of rainbow.
Enduring the many storms and place wagers,
wagers on our hopeless dreams, our souls

Never forsaken by how much the rain falls,
And the gleaming sun promises to dry.
No matter how much i praise i love you,
No matter how much we continue to cry.

Still we seek a pathway thru the mystic mist
We are blind fools...

Shes so beautiful and strong but she just doesn't see it
Hoping her dreams and reality will one day see eye to eye
Sadly her life is like a puzzle, nothing seems to fit

Her smiles portray a happy girl in love, no one would've guessed
That everyday she buries herself in fairytale books
Colourful stories that dull the pain within her left breast

How long will she weep she does not know
But she smiles and smiles, praying one day
2morrow... 2day... the pain will fade away

Never one to deny the opportunity to dance
Shame that upon my gaze she's so transparent
I clearly see thru her every performance

Lonely she is but still a hopeless romantic
Her cries and screams go unheard, muffled by her round soft pillow
A kind heart laying in wait to be salvaged, from a spesho fellow

Shes so beautiful and strong but she just doesn't see it
Still she performs with a smile on her face
For her sorrow and pain kept deep within, she will never admit

Image of mine shattered by their lack of faith...
The person they see is no longer i
For he has dispersed from their memories
Drowning within the many created lies
Disgusted by their lack of trust
Ripping all those loved ones ties
Silenced and ridiculed and left to burn
Forced to witness my own crucifixion
Never did i believe your faith would turn
Turn against the endless trials of you n i
Planted were the seeds of yesterdays false hopes
Blooming into the tainted flower of today's jealousy
If only they were 2see thru my eyes
Still i wonder would they still persist to lie?
Words that attempt to corrode at my very existence
Has me distraught standing infront of an audience
We stumbled through the many days 2gether
But today we walk, walk away from forever
Image of them shattered by their lack of faith...