in the foot and the heart...by getting involved w him...and posting...i really did myself in on here...i mean really...who would want to get a hold of me now...my mail has dropped dramatically...yes i got involved to my deteriment...it's not just the everyday bloggers who read these...so now just inquiries from people...all i have left now is blogging...and unless i come up w a really hot topic or take a lot of time out to write...except for a few friends, true internet friends, i am rather isolated on here now...so i guess i ride it out, check in periodically, and i guess warn others about posting on here what goes on here before they isolate themselves from contact by so doing...maybe i should just drop out of site like him and his girl...sometimes i wish i wouldf have taken time out ot chat w him on skype from my art show, but then would have more to torment myself w probably...oh well...one can't think straight when they r very emotional...ok virgo where is the song for this one
(for virgo my friend thru thick and thin) and to others who tried to comfort me
a sincere thanks
well just went thru all my emails from him and was quite atonished by all of them...i could truly c why i was such an emotional mess yesterday till my faith stepped in to soothe and calm me down...they were very, very intense and no wonder after i compared them w the forum and what he had written there at the same time and days writing me so vividly and myself replying let's communicate this way and as soon as my art show is done let's talk about things at length when i have time in abundance...interestingly enough had received emails from both of them...both were very polite to me...whoa being caught up unknowingly in a triangle is no fun at all...i suppose from his side all is fair in love and war and isn't it interesting to note that our two countries had just been at war many years...i mean yesterday morning on my way to get supplies before breakfast and to read my email (was so looking fwd to it) was thinking the only thing that was keeping us apart was politics, our countries, and looking and thinking of ways to get around it...and to come home to attempt to eat while i was reading what was really going on...no wonder i was so extremely devasated after being beseiged like that...and the way i found things out...yes people my faith keeps me going but i am a sensitive, very girly-girl and so am emotional...i can't just snap out of it...it shall take some time to get thru it...i think i need to go be w my friends...it's funny i use to think how do people get involved thru the internet...mail is mail however it is written...and words last forever...didn't Beethoven write that...these words will last forever...
to hopefully sell some of the crafty items i made along w bringing my paintings...my son's tuition is very high and the boy in college needs some assistance for extra's...i use to have a memoriam scholarship for the boys since their dad died, but they went and built a brand new high school and so cannot extend that type of help anymore geezzzz...that's one of the reasons we didn't move is my son wants to go to the school where his brother did, (it is one of the top 100 schools in our nation) and didn't want to leave the pets behind, but , i wanted to move to Cali...again the sacrifices mom's make for their kids...anyways want to pull in some money before my dance classes begins...which is a month away...so need some extra mula...working, and dancing my life away...
go to the forum confused and c for ur self also read the blog need to write this cause i wonder posted by myself just yesterday...and after this is read...morgen if u haven't read the forum just listed, u need to, then u need to come and give me an apology for all of this...i am so emotionally worn out, i even sent him mr confused a message back today saying that i was crying...yes i was attracted to him and him supposedly to me...pleading w me to go to him...and now all of this..i am tired...i am upset...and i have to go to my art show very, very upset w all of this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! guess i need aa apology from HIM also!!!
virgo u will luv this one about me and the situation i have blogged about, The Supremes, "Love is Here,and Now Your Gone," the lyrics r just perfect for the events of these last few weeks...
Or should I say preppies for short? Would a man prefer someone extremely feminine over a much stronger independent woman? Does a girly-girl represent high maintenance in your opinion?
due to the fact it is now 2 yrs and a few months since my hubbie died...and every time i go to the store there r pics of Tom Cruise and my Tom was like a blond version of him and it drives me crazy...miss my sexy baby to the max...am being brave and moving on...i need to go dancing next week and get this pent-up passion out of me...we use to go dancing at a 6,000 square ft floor, he was a pro dancer also...sometimes i wonder would it be this hard if i was older...being at mid-life and a widow sucks royal...well i better get back to my painting for tomorrow...painting t-shirts for little babies...they r so cute the kiddies and the designs i am creating...wish me luck tomorrow to get some extra mula to whoop it up plus take care of my two boys...
my first love was 100% Italian...never forgot him...the charisma...the love...so it seems fitting to me to have my last love in my life also be Italian...
Bring it on baby!!
heya as a relatively new member and as a widow back into the dating game...wondering for the people on here who have personally met others either thru other mediums or in person what is the proper timing...i mean the first message someone sends u and they want all ur personal info to reach u right off the bat is suspect...i guess...but then what...when is it lightly flirting...and showing interest to...i want to seriously get to know u...how does one really know...and as a Catholic who is flirting and wants to date again and get involved...but no s*xual intercourse until the proper timing...but of course want to be intimate...but not the total whole way is not right when first meeting...i mean if u meet up and there is traveling experienced does that necessarily mean come hither and take me??? i mean if someone is trying to scam u do they do it right away or do they establish something first...have not had someone ask me for mula but am very unsure of how to proceed and what is the proper timing i mean how soon would someone go to skype or to cam?? how soon before private emails and phone calls?? i am really in the dark...i still operate on that the man should take the lead...but what does one do here???
my art show is in 2 days...it shall be in the city of S. Bend...we pull in about 8 to 9 thousand people...this shall be my 5th yr involvement...hope to God that i obtain some commissions...taking my religious icons...also taking some aparrel that i designed to hopefully get some instant cash to pay for boy's school tuitions...also plan on taking it to the market during the week to sell the fiber arts...
how many of us girls were inundated w many, many messages over the last few weeks to join in the harem...i mean really how many of us were asked to make big decisions just on the basis of a picture and pleadings...and also guys is this what u go thru over and over and over again...do some girls do this to u...ask, and plead w u to be theirs forever and ever...needless to say when i put my foot down it stopped but it was rather relentless...it is really something to witness...i mean i like anyone enjoy attention...BUT this was rather different and actually i know from my readings that sometimes it works out on here for people in various countries...makes me wonder how the success stories actually evolve into something for real
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