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My Stance on Politics

Well, the elections are inching closer and closer! Ad campaigns are all over the media, discussions are popping up left and right, and I've gotta tell you....

I couldn't care less.

I've never really talked about this publicly before. Not to my parents, not even on my own YouTube channel. I've had a few short conversations about it with friends over Skype, and even then, I really didn't go any more in depth with the topic aside from saying, "I don't care about politics." So this is my first time really delving into this topic....This outta be interesting. XD

So first of all, let me rephrase my statement a bit. I guess I do SOMEWHAT care about politics, but not in an at all positive way. In the past, that statement might have been true, but over the years, I've actually grown quite a distaste for anything political. Why? Because I swear, every....single.....time....I hear about something going on in the political world, it's almost ALWAYS, about something negative. "We're gonna build a wall around the country." "We're gonna try to sneak ANOTHER bill past everybody to screw internet users over." Ect, ect. The only positive thing I can recall the government doing recently is legalizing gay marriage, but that's about it.

This election season has only made my hatred for politics grow even more. Last election, it was pretty much no contest that Obama would win. Like, seriously, between him and Mitt Romney, Obama was definitely the better option. However, with THIS election season, it basically comes down to, "Which one of these candidates do you think is LESS terrible than the other?" Not to mention the constant campaign ads that show nothing but candidates trash talking other candidates, the bull crud and corrupt decisions that both candidates plan to do when they get into office, every time I hear anything about politics, all I hear is negativity, negativity, and more negativity.

Maybe that's just the state our country is in right now. I don't know. But given the fact that both of our options aren't all that spectacular, it doesn't look like my outlook on the political world is gonna change anytime soon. What do you guys think? Am I alone in thinking this? Or should I grab my flame war shield, and brace myself for the oncoming attack that's soon to come? XD Let me know in the comments. That's about all I wanted to say. Just wanted to get that off my chest. Thanks for reading everybody! See you in the next post. :)

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Nov 2016
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The O.I. Saga Ch. 8: One Step At a Time

WHOA THERE! Looks like the website got a bit of a visual upgrade since the last time I've posted on here! AND I can finally see the character limit for these blog posts, so YAY! I DON'T HAVE TO GUESS HOW LONG MY POSTS ARE GONNA BE ANYMORE! XD

So it's been awhile since my last entry in the O.I. Saga, and that's mostly been because progress has been....rather slow honestly. Progress is still be made towards my independence, don't get me wrong. It's just.....slow progress. :P So here's what went down. Last time I said I'd tell my parents about how I was feeling these past few months. It was quite a struggle to do this, and I have no idea why. It was like, everytime I WANTED to say something about it, something in my head just wouldn't let me. Like I'd open my mouth to speak, but nothing would come out. That was the worst man. But you know what? I did it! And I'm here to tell you how this intense conversation went down! Sit down, get some popcorn, cause I'm gonna give you the short story version of how it happened! HERE IT GOES!

Mom: You know son, my back has been hurting a lot lately. It makes lifting you kinda difficult.

Me: You think there's something out there that might help me transfer myself a bit more?

Mom: I dunno, maybe.

Me: You know, I was actually thinking it'd be nice if I could do things more independently.

Mom: Oh yeah, I actually called some guys at the (Insert Disability Corporation Here, Cause I Can't Remember What She Called Them) that are gonna help set you up with some tools to do just that.

Me: Oh...really?

Mom: Yep!

Me: Oh....Alright then!

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THAT'S IT!

Obviously I paraphrased the conversation, but that's pretty much how it went down. All that worrying, all that stressing out, for THAT! XD A short, 20 second conversation, basically saying, "Oh, pfft! That's what you're worried about? We started planning for that AGES ago!" :P Now as of writing this blog post, no further progress has been made on that subject in particular, other than my mom saying, "We're gonna have them come in at some point." But just hearing that more progress WILL be made later down the road was enough to take a HUGE weight off of my mind. One step closer, to bein' a more independent little wheelchair dude. :P

When will we delve further into this process. I'm not sure yet, and depending on how much time passes, I may ask my mom about it again, just to make sure that it's still a thing that's happening. I'm not exactly sure how this process will go, but now I'm quite interested to say the least. Kinda seems like I'm gonna get an inside look on how other people with similar conditions from my own achieve their day to day lives. Kinda exciting.

Anyway, I think that's about it, with a whole one thousand characters to spare! WOOT, WOOT! XD I hope you enjoyed this one. I know this entry is a bit more rambly from my other O.I. Saga blog posts, but hey, like I said, progress is slow this time around. :P Hopefully the next entry will have a few more updates in them than this one. Anyway, thanks for reading, and I'll see you guys in the next one. Laters! :)

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What's to Come

It's been awhile since I've posted a blog on here, so I figured I'd give you guys a bit of an update. Last time I said I'd talk to my parents about my want for more independence, which I have actually done finally! GREAT! So why haven't I written another entry in the O.I. saga yet? ...Well....because the conversation didn't really give me enough material for me to dedicate an entire blog post about it. XD I didn't wanna give you guys a two paragraph long entry in the O.I. saga, so I decided to hold off on it for now until more progress gets made, and I have more material to write about.

If you want the short version of what went down, the conversation was brief, but got the job done. As for the long version....well, that'll depend on when more progress gets made, which may not be for another few weeks. Two or three at most. Otherwise, I'd say I'm heading in the right direction to achieve this goal of mine. :)

Anyway, just wanted to do this short little post to let you all know that I'm still around, and that progress is still being made. Thanks so much for all the support as always. Your advice and feedback has really helped me move forward with this quest for independence, as well as perked me up when I was feeling down in the dumps. Hopefully you'll see a new installment of the O.I. saga by the end of October, or early November. Until then, thanks for reading, and I'll see you guys in the next Blog post.

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The O.I. Saga Ch. 7: The Game Plan

I'm feeling a bit down in the dumps today, but that's not gonna stop me from bringing you guys another exciting blog post. And yes, this is indeed gonna be a positive installment in the O.I. saga, because today, I'm bringing you....

....Drum roll please.....

....my game plan for my independence! So here's what went down. The other day, I came a Facebook group for people with O.I. When I joined the group, the first thing I did was write a post asking my other fellow O.I. colleagues about ways I can be more independent with my condition. Because after all, if anyone knows how to accomplish this, it's others who went through the same things that I'M currently going through. And sure enough, within hours, I was able to get a TON of suggestions on how to accomplish this goal. With that said, I have taken their suggestions, and used them to construct a plan on how to be more independent. So without further ado, here is my game plan on how to be more independent!

The most obvious first step to take, is to get a wheelchair that I can actually move myself. My current wheelchair is designed in a way where I can't move it. My parents have to push it for me. So even outside, I'm not able to do much on my own, which is a huge problem. The obvious way to combat this, is to get a wheelchair that I can move on my own, which will obviously give me more freedom to do whatever. There are two types of wheelchairs I could get. One's a manual wheelchair, where I simply just roll the wheels to move, and the other is a Power Chair, where I control a battery powered wheelchair using an analog stick. I'm thinking I'm gonna go with a power chair, since their heavier, and have less of a risk of flipping over. And the last thing I need is to get crushed by my own wheelchair....Not fun. XD

The second thing that could benefit my need for independence are grabbing reacher sticks. If you don't know what those are, they look like this.

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=1423726560976482&set=p.1423726560976482&type=3

This one should be self explanatory. Say I'm riding around in my wheelchair, and I wind up dropping something. No problem! Just pull out the grabbing sticks, and use that to pull the object by towards me! Better yet, but this could also be useful for when I'm in my house, and NOT in my wheelchair. I could use these to maybe get something from a tall shelf, or flick a light switch, or open a door, all from the ground. It can definitely make some tasks ALOT simpler to perform. The third thing would be ways for me to perform some daily tasks on my own. Getting food and things like that. This I think might be the easiest one to accomplish, as it's the first thing I came up with before I even found the Facebook group. There are most likely ways to modify certain objects, or even ways to purchase objects that suit my needs. So no big deal there.

Then there's the final part of my game plan, and it's the part that I'm still very uncertain about how to accomplish. The task of getting up/down from high up places. Getting in and out of bed, getting in and out of my wheelchair, ect. Currently, this task is done by my parents, who carry me into these respected areas. And although it's an effective means to accomplish this task, it certainly isn't a permanent one. My parents obviously aren't getting any younger, and they won't be able to do this task for me forever. So the sooner I figure out how to do this on my own, the better. I just don't know how to do it. Maybe a lift of some kind? I dunno, but I'll cross that road when I get there. Right now though, I'm about to hit the blog character limit, so I'm gonna end it here. Let me know what you guys think of this game plan in the comments below, and I'll see you in the next blog post.

....where I finally tell my parents about how I'm feeling. AWW SNAP! CLIFFHANGER YO!!!! XD

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Another Side Post About Video Editing

Seeing as how my next entry in the O.I. Saga may be awhile, I thought I'd do another somewhat rambly blog post about another hobby I'm into. Video Editing. I posted a link to one of my review videos in my previous blog, if you want to see what that's like.

So creating videos was something I've done ever since I was a little kid, but to a less complicated calibrator obviously. :P Back then, all I had to work with was a camera, and a bunch of toys to use as characters. Now obviously....those videos don't hold up very well. XD But I will say there were times where I'd get creative with how I recorded these videos, aswell as how I would transfer them to VHS. Pausing the VCR recording so I could fast forward the camera past parts I didn't want to include, then resuming the recording, messing with the built in effects on the camcorder, basically creating the illusion of editing. Those videos still don't hold up, but you know what, looking back, that was still pretty clever. Nice going Mini-Me. :P

So if you couldn't already guess, video editing was just something I naturally picked up on, even in my little kiddie days. Now we flash forward years later where I discovered the world of YouTube. As I created more videos on that site, my editing style became more and more complex, until it eventually became the editing style that you see before you today. As I said a few blogs ago, my favorite videos to work on are the review videos, as they're the videos I put the most time and energy into. Lots of effects, some 3D animations, (another thing I'm into) and like I said before, even working my way into including some story arcs into this series. It's a fun time all around. :D

There are obviously alot of aspects to creating a video, but the editing process is by far my favorite part of it, as that's the part where you finally see the finalized product come to life. What about you guys? What are some hobbies that you're into? Or do you agree with me about how awesome video editing is? XD Fill free to let me know in the comments. In the meantime, here's a review I did of some of those old home movies I was talking about. You guys get to see some of the special effects I do in my newer videos, along side the crummy quality of my older videos. It's a win win! XD Anyway, thanks for reading, and you may or may not see an update to the O.I. saga next week. Not sure yet. I've got another plan in the works for Operation: Red Robin. :P I'll play it by ear, and see how it goes. Until then, see you in the next blog everyone. :P

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The O.I. Saga Ch. 6: Incoming Video Message

Okay, so there's not an ACTUAL video message in this blog, but hear me out. :P Before we dive in, let me give a bit of a follow up to my previous blog, since I said I would do that. "Operation: Red Robin" was a flop. The waitress wasn't even there, as I expected. I'm sure there will be plenty more opportunities to try again in the future, but on the bright side, atleast I got some tasty Mac and Cheese out of it. Mmmmmmmm.....:P

Now then, on to the main topic of this blog. As you know, I've had a bit of an internal struggle with myself about my lack of independence. My O.I. seemingly prevents me from doing normal adult things, such as going outside on my own, preparing my own food, ect and ect. I've yet to tell my parents about how I'm currently feeling, as I just feel awkward talking to them about it. But now I'm at a point where I so very badly want to talk to them about it, as it would seem that's the only way to make any real progress.

Today an idea popped into my head about how I could go about doing this. I'm not sure if I'll go THROUGH with this idea, but it's an idea none the less. You see my first initial plan, and the plan I might ultimately wind up going with, was I was going to write up a list of bullet points, going over all of the different things that are currently bothering me, as well as all the goals I'm wanting to accomplish. Basically write out a sort of game plan for how I'm going to tell them, before I actually tell them.

See another reason why this is quite difficult, is that I'm just not good at talking about more serious topics such as this. Sure, I'm doing pretty fine at it right now with this blog post, but that's because that's exactly what this is. A blog. You see I've found out that if I actually take the time to write out what I'm going to say, before I actually say it, I'm able to construct my thoughts and opinions alot better. For example, with this blog, although it might take you a few minutes to read all of it, for me, it'll take like maybe, 30 to 40 minutes max to write it from start to finish. That's why it's easier to talk about this here, because I have more time to really think about how I want to express these thoughts and feelings I'm having. In an unscripted environment, I feel like I come off as a bit rambly and scatter brained, atleast when it comes to more serious topics.

AND THAT'S WHEN IT HIT ME!

I could possibly use this more scripted format to explain to my parents about this independence thing! Okay, so quick backstory for context. I have a YouTube channel, where I post gameplay videos, and reviews. The reviews are all scripted, and I put alot of hard work into the writing and editing of those videos. Here. Have a random link to one of those reviews if you wanna take a look at them. Hope you have 50 minutes to kill. XD

Anyway, so I figured, if for whatever reason, the list of bullet points isn't enough, and I can't work up the courage to tell them that way, then maybe I could create a video talking about it. I don't know if I'd make it a public video on my channel, for all of my subscribers to see, but it could still be a possibility in atleast letting my parents know how I feel. This way, by creating a script around this topic, I can make sure I cover everything about it, and then that should be enough to get the conversation going.

Now again, I'm not sure if I'll go through with this idea, as it is currently just that, an idea. I might just go with the bullet points thing, but that's just something I thought of today. What do you guys think? Good idea? Bad idea? Meh idea? :P Let me know. In the meantime, the quest for independence continues!

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The O.I. Saga Ch. 5: The Time Has Come

As "Operation: Red Robin" draws nearer and nearer, (If you're reading this, you know what I'm talking about.

) the more I'm beginning to realize how big of a step this is gonna be. Even if this winds up unsuccessful, and she rejects for whatever reason, I think the outcome of this situation will be interesting either way.

If you've been following my blog for awhile now, you know that one goal I'm aiming to achieve is to gain more independence, as I currently have very little of it due to my O.I. With that said, here's why I think that when the time comes to try and talk to that pretty waitress, the outcome will be interesting. When the day rolls around, my dad is gonna be there with me, and I'm going to atleast ATTEMPT to make it obvious that I'm crushing on her. (If she's even there that is.) Heck, I'll even flat out tell him if I have too. :P

I know in my last blog, I was talking about how the reason I didn't try talking to her last time was because there were a bunch of family members around. But not only will I have only ONE family member with me this time, instead of several, but I think telling your dad that you have a crush on someone is a LITTLE LESS embarrassing than telling your mom. Don't you think? :P Now as I've said before, my parents don't know about my want for more independence yet, because I feel awkward talking about it, and don't know how to tell them. So when the day rolls around, and my Dad and I go out to eat, and the Waitress ends up being there, that means that one of two outcomes could come from this.

1: The plan goes along smoothly, and we wind up hitting it off, and have a possible date in the future. GREAT! Sounds awesome! Obviously, this is the outcome that would be most satisfying. :P But not only that, but once this happens, think about the aftermath that could come from this. My dad would most likely tell my mom about what happened, we'd get into a conversation about it, AND....it would probably be the PERFECT segway into me telling them about how I want some more independence! So not only do I finally get a chance to talk to the waitress, but I'd also get to take a huge step forward into gaining more independence, without feeling too awkward talking to them about it. It's a win win!

Then there's the second outcome, which is the outcome that I'm sure EVERYONE is afraid of when trying to ask a girl out. REJECTION! Perhaps she's already with someone, or she just won't be interested, or whatever the reason may be. That's obviously not fun. BUT, the aftermath would most likely play out very similarly. My dad tells my mom, we have a conversation about it, insert independence topic here. So no matter which one of these outcomes happens, this is still going to be a HUGE step in the right direction for me regardless. The only difference is that one outcome is just a little more depressing than the other. :P Regardless though, as soon as this conversation gets going, the ball will only keep rolling from here on out, and maybe, JUST MAYBE, I'll finally have the independence that I've been wanting for SO LONG now, in my sights at long last!

What do you guys think? Do you think the results of this situation will be interesting regardless of what happens, like I do? Or do you think I'm totally crazy, and that I have no idea what I'm talking about? XD Let me know in the comments below. I always look forward to reading your responses. Thanks for reading, and I'll see you in the next blog, which will most likely be the results of this little outing to Red Robin. See you then everyone!

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Writing Is Fun

So whenever I'm not moping in my blog posts about my O.I, my lack of independence, or gushing over a pretty girl I met at a restaurant, I do one of four things.

A: I play video games, or watch TV.

B: I chat with my buddies on Skype.

C: I watch videos on YouTube.

or D: I work on YouTube videos.

The more specific thing I wanna talk about in this post, is a certain TYPE of video I make, and the videos that I'm most proud of. My review videos. A sorta hobby I picked up recently is writing. Although since I started these reviews, it's actually been a few years, but sometime last year was when I started taking writing a bit more seriously. Something I've always wanted to try with my review series was to implement an on going storyline, that carries over from episode to episode. I'm starting to ease into this idea, but the storyline hasn't gone into full swing yet. It's still very much in the beginning phases.

Anyway, the point I'm getting at is that I really like coming up with stories. It's something I've done ever since I was a kid. I would come up with these weird little adventures and scenarios and all that stuff. No matter how old I got, coming up with stories was something that always stuck with me. The only thing is since I was still a little kid when I started doing this, alot of the stories involved other pre-existing characters and such. Hey, I was 10! Can you blame me? XD

I always wanted to try to create a story that had my own original characters, with a world that had lore to it, and all that jazz. Welp, recently I've been working on such a thing. I won't go into TOO much detail about it, since I'm not quite ready to reveal this project publicly yet, but basically, I've been writing a story for a game that I'm wanting to make. (Yeah, writing and game design are two major things that I'm into. XD) So far, I'm really happy with how it's been turning out, and the few friends that I've showed this too seem to like the direction it's heading as well. This is a project that I've wanting to do for a good few years now, and during that time, I've thought alot about the characters, who they are, what their backstories are, what the world's like, ect, ect. And the best part, all of it is original ideas that I came up with. How cool is that? :P

So yeah, writing stories is something I'm really into atm. Infact before I started writing this blog post, I was writing some more of the story today. XD It's a really fun time, and I enjoy it alot. :) I'm also quite into video editing, but I won't go into that right now. Maybe depending on the reception this blog post gets, I'll go into more detail about that hobby in a later post. ;) I just figured since my last few posts have been kinda....depressing, it'd be cool to write a more uplifting, light hearted blog post, where I talk about some of the more positive aspects of my current situation. Hopefully, you guys enjoyed my sorta rambly blog post. :P I'm looking forward to hearing your responses as usual. Thanks for reading everybody!

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The O.I. Saga Ch. 4: Can You Feel the Love Tonight

So I'm sure alot of you know what I'm on this site for. It's the very same reason that alot of you are on here for. To look for a little something call, "love." I'd play some sappy music on the world's smallest violin right about now, but I don't have it on me. Oh well. :P

But yeah, so I'm a 20 year old man, who hasn't seen a single date in his entire life. Kinda sad, I know. :P And seeing as how that "getting more independence" thing hasn't gotten rolling yet, I've turned to the wonderful world of the internet, to try to get into the dating scene, where I eventually came across this site. Sadly though, my efforts to try to find someone to talk to on here have been unsuccessful, usually with the outcome being, nobody responding to my messages, or I'd get maybe, two responses from someone at most, and then they disappear from the site forever. (Seriously, I notice not alot of people stick around for long on here. What's up with that?)

This is one of the bigger voids I've been having, on top of the whole, "not being able to do much on my own" thing. I consider myself to be mostly a happy guy. I like chatting with my online friends, playing some games with them, I usually make alot of jokes half the time, I'm almost always coming up with ideas for stories, and videos. (I have a YouTube channel, so that's why I come up with ideas for videos.) The stuff I do is for the most part really fun and enjoyable. And yet...I feel like it'd be nice to have someone to share that with. And being boxed in my home isn't really helping that at all.

Even the few moments where I do get out of the house, I still feel boxed in, since the only way my wheel chair can move, is if somebody else is pushing it. So even when I'm out in the world, where all the action is, I still don't have alot of freedom to go anywhere. I sorta have to go where the wind takes me, so to speak.

This sorta circles back around to the main topic of this post. My lack of dating experience. Gather around boys & girls, cause it's story time! :P So one day, my family and I were eating at Red Robin, one of my favorite restaurants, when we get a couple of waitresses to do what waitresses normally do. One of the waitresses caught my eye, and I got a feeling inside me that I haven't felt in like....years. No, it wasn't a boner. I can see you weirdos about to type that in the comments. Put those keyboards away, and let me finish :P It's hard to explain, as I'm sure it usually is with this sorta topic. All I know, is that I thought she was incredibly beautiful, and that something inside me wanted me to get to know her more.

So what would a normal person do in this situation? Well once you got over the "Crushing on that one girl in highschool from the otherside of the locker room" phase, you work up the courage to try and ask her out, right? There was just one teeny tiny problem that was standing in the way of this particular pla- I HAD MY MOM, MY SISTER, HER BOYFRIEND, AND MY NIECE AND NEPHEW LITERALLY ALL AROUND ME! Rule #1! When there's a pretty girl you wanna talk to, the last thing you want is to have your MOM right there next to you, while you try to ask her out! Not fun. XD And that was that. I never even got a chance to talk to her, and much disappointment was felt that day. That was actually what finally drove me into writing that first blog post I wrote a few months back, cause that was the point where I finally figured out why I was feeling so down in the dumps for awhile, and I just needed a way to talk to someone about it.

That's one good thing that's come out of this site for me. This blogging thing has actually helped ease my mind quite a bit throughout all of this. It kinda has been like my own self therapy. :P Anyway, I just kinda wanted to speak out my mind a little bit today. Thanks for reading everybody. :)

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The O.I. Saga Ch. 3: Ultimatum (2/2)

NOTE! This is a continuation of an earlier blog post, so be sure to read that first to understand what's going on.

You might be asking yourself "Why are you so hesitant to tell them? Why is that such a difficult thing for you to do?" To be perfectly honest, I'm not 100% sure why that is either. All I know is that this is something I've always struggled with, even before this O.I. thing even became an issue. For some strange reason, I've always, ALWAYS, felt weird about telling them about more serious matters like this, even though I know for a FACT that they'd most likely be more than understanding of the topic.

A few years ago, I was offered a YouTube partnership. If you don't know what that is, it basically means that if I sign up with a certain network, I can earn money from just creating content for my YouTube channel. If you were under 18, you needed your parents permission first, before you could sign up for this. So naturally I'd be like, "HECK YEAH DUDE! I'm gonna tell them about this RIGHT AWAY! :D" But...because this was about what is essentially getting a job to earn money, which is more of a real life topic, I felt EXTREMELY weird trying to tell them about it. There were several instances where I'd TRY telling them, but for whatever reason, the words I wanted to say just wouldn't escape my mouth. I did wind up telling them eventually, and I did get the partnership, but the point is, even when it's something that I KNOW they'd be on board with, for whatever reason, my brain will just refuse to tell them about it, and I literally have no idea why.

So if I had THAT much trouble telling about how I can earn money from simply making videos, imagine trying to tell them, "Yo guys! So I've been having an internal struggle with myself for the past few months now. I think it's cause I wanna try to get out more and live like a normal human being, but I've been feeling pretty down in the dumps about it cause I think that will be literally impossible to do. Anyway, how's the weather?" To kinda circle back to the main point of this blog post, regardless of how weird it might make me feel to talk to them about it, I feel like at this point, it's a must. So if I don't get that response from Sean, then I'm gonna have to man up, and tell them about this issue, in hopes that maybe we can figure out a solution together.

Since you wonderful people have been so supportive of this ambitious task of mine in the past, I've decided to come to you all with this question. What do you think I can do to make telling my parents about this issue a little easier? And while I'm at it, just as a sort of "Just for fun" question, what solutions do YOU think I could do to try and gain some more independence for myself, despite the limitations this condition gives me? With that, that about wraps up this blog post. I'm almost positive there's gonna be a part 4 at some point, so I hope you'll all stay tuned for that. :P That's all for now everybody! Thanks for reading, and I'll see you all in the next one. See ya! :)

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The O.I. Saga Ch. 3: Ultimatum (1/2)

Apparently there's an invisible character limit for these blog posts, so I'm actually gonna have to split up this post into two seperate parts. If you haven't seen my previous posts, I recommend you read those first to get a better understanding of what's going on. With that, let's jump right in.

So since my last post, not much has changed honestly. I'm still cooped up in my house, doing the same routine I do every other day. Wake up, eat breakfast, work on some YouTube stuff, watch some videos, sometimes playing games while LISTENING to videos in the background, eat lunch, chat with friends on Skype, maybe have a snack, get ready for bed, then go to sleep to repeat it all the next morning. Sounds fun right? Well...yeah. I won't lie, it's certainly not a routine I don't enjoy. BUT, as usual, there's that nagging feeling in the back of my head that wants something more than that.

In my previous blog post, I explained that I didn't want to tell my parents about my current thought process until I knew for an absolute FACT that what I'm aiming to do is actually a possibility. This still remains true. They still don't know about this conflict that's rattling in my brain right now. I want to try to find solutions first, to ensure that this isn't just a lost cause, and that I can actually do what I'm aiming to do. To this day however, I've found no solutions, and don't even know where to even BEGIN to start looking for possibilities to finally get out of this house, and start living my own life. A few days ago however, I thought of one last place I could look to try to find a solution. Not really a place, but a person rather.

Some of you here might know of a guy named Sean Stephenson. He's a motivational speaker who has the same bone disease that I have. I figured if anyone knew how to accomplish the goals I'm aiming to achieve, it's him. So last night, I sent him an email explaining my situation, and what I'm wanting to achieve. I'm....not expecting a response in all honesty. He's a pretty big guy, and probably gets tons of emails a day. But I'm giving it a shot regardless, cause it's not like I have a whole lot of options right now. If he does reply however, then maybe, JUST MAYBE, I might FINALLY get some answers to all these questions that have been spinning around in my head.

Now at this point, you're probably wondering what the title of this blog post is about. What "ultimatum" am I referring to exactly? Well here's the deal. I have completely ran out of ideas on how I can find answers to this issue, and it's looking like this is a situation that I can't even BEGIN to resolve on my own. Not even the researching part of the process, which I THOUGHT would be the easiest part, before I wound up finding nothing. So here's my ultimatum. As I said, I'm not expecting a response from Sean due to his most likely busy schedule, but I'm gonna give him some time to see what happens. If he doesn't respond within the next, say...week or so, then I'll be left with no other choice. I may have to tell my parents about this issue sooner than I initially planned.

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O.I. Wars II: Attack of the Revenge of the Sith

Hey hey everybody! I'm having one of those moments again where I'm thinking about how I'm wanting more independence, and meet new people outside, and basically the same stuff I mentioned in my first blog. I decided to spend a few moments to follow up on that blog by saying a couple of things.

First of all, I wanna thank each and every single one of you guys for the kind words of support that you all left in my previous blog. You don't know how much that means to me. It really helped to lift my spirits during a time when I was feeling really down in the dumps. I'm not sure what else to really add to that. Just wanted to thank all of you for all the kindness. :)

Secondly, I'm trying to Google ways I could achieve the goals I wanna achieve. That's always been kinda difficult for me, since I'm never sure what exactly to search to find what I'm looking for. :P I'm trying to look for ways I can do day to day things by myself, while still making sure I'm doing it safely. Don't wanna end up with like, a tipped over wheel chair somewhere, and then being like, "Welp.....Guess I'm just here now." :P I know there are ways for people with O.I to perform regular day to day activities like everybody else. I've seen it done from a couple of sources. I just don't know HOW they do those things, which is what I need to figure out, for this to even work.

I guess just to add this in, I haven't really told my parents about this thought process I'm going through because....well a couple of reasons. A: I don't know how they'd react. And B: For whatever reason, I always feel awkward bringing these type of "real life problem" topics up to them. I dunno WHY I feel like that. I'm more than capable of talking about OTHER problems with them, but they're more goofy, "Point and laugh at" kinds of problems, like "What? The Playstation 4 doesn't have backwards compatibility? PFFFT! That's just silly!" No joke, my mom and I ACTUALLY had a pretty in depth conversation about that. XD And yet, when it comes to this particular situation, which is a legitimately serious topic, I don't feel comfortable discussing it. Like I said, I just feel awkward about it, and the last thing I wanna do is make things awkward. That's not a fun feeling at all. I'm the type of guy who really only brings up those types of topics, if it feels natural to bring it up in the current conversation I'm having. I'm sure you can see the obvious problem with that. When would a conversation like that ever come up? How would I bring it up? I don't know.

But this sorta goes back to the Google searching I mentioned earlier. I sorta don't wanna bring it up to them AT ALL until I know for a fact that what I'm aiming to achieve is actually possible. More importantly, HOW to achieve it. If I can get that step out of the way, then MAYBE I can finally work up the courage to bring all this up to them. Until then though, it's back to the searches I go. This was definitely a much more rambly blog than my previous one, so thanks for sticking with me if you got this far. :P I guess I'll wrap this up by saying, see you next time, and thanks again for all the support. See ya around! :)

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