First Blog: 01 Conflagration- Perfection is not human.
First time I'm writing this stuff on here. Anyway I just need a place to brainstorming my head, my thoughts and my anger toward things I couldn't handle it. I posted some poems here also, you can check it on my profile.Yeah I used to write daily in my journal. I make and creating poems, quotes and story. My first book will launch soon in my country, FOUR PIECES and it used Bahasa not English. I'm writing the second one with English and hopefully I could share some of it here.
I have duties at work. Also an arrogant Boss. My job is fine but it has lot of pressure. Sometimes I'm stuck and I can't handle my emotions towards people around me because Boss have a trust issues and He wants me to be as perfect as he wanted me too. Well, I'm only human, I am not God and it's burdened me sometimes. Not sometimes but a lots. Perfection is not human and I hate it. I hate being that person everyday.
So, here's the thing about work and my circumstances:
When you've tried being nice, no bad intention,and just showing some respect and teamwork , hell etc heaven knows what I've done for, then suddenly they threw sh*t right back to you. Like---, wth? Then you started questioning and doubting yourself what on earth happened with me?
It is me or it's just in my head?
OR--- I'm too crazy to be a part of them? Then who's the one to blame?
Most of the time I've done my best and that's what I've got? Is it fair enough?
Enlighten me because I started to hate that If you know what I meant.
As a leader I think You should have known and aware about everything that had happened in your workplace and stop blaming someone else. Because there're lots of conflagration in your space but you've been busy pleasing someone else's problem instead of taking good care of your team.
Comments (6)
That's right. How difficult would it be for your boss to replace you? How difficult for you to find another job? I don't know the unemployment rates or the labor laws (and enforcement) where you live, but employees are almost always at a disadvantage everywhere. When I was young and up against it, all I knew to do was to spend as little as possible and save as much as possible, to get out of it. Meanwhile, never stop looking for another job. The value of Labor (wages) depends on Supply and Demand -- just like any other commodity. With that in mind, I would not even think about having kids. All that does is give the bosses a desperate, hungry pool of cheap labor.
Sorry I can't be more optimistic. But if I'm wrong, that would be good.
I can understand how people grow passionate about their jobs...and that is a great thing for employers. I think that shows employee dedication.
However, I think....and I stress here...I think....
When everything boils down to it...an employee actually belongs to their employer (for the time they are at work).
within reason of course...
You get hired to do a specific job, with a specific job description.
In return, you receive a pay check.
Anything outside of that, is just drama.
Now with that said, each company has their own culture. I don't know your company's culture. But, if there is some sort of conflict or friction going on, do they have somebody you can talk to about that? If so, I would maybe possibly consider that...especially if what is going on is something you cannot be around.
....but....I do notice that you use the word "hate" a lot. ...in reference to how you feel about what is going on.
Hate is a very strong negative emotion.
Anyway, the call is ultimately yours and if you can remove that hate and have a more neutral perspective, maybe things will get better too.
As Miss Manners (Judith Martin) often warns, the workplace is normally not a bunch of good buddies who happen to work at the same place. "Loyalty" is a one-way buzz-word.